MackDaddySean YC: dont kick me out too.. Im sorry I love you.
i had to quote that because sean is the best. hi r__gosling. guys i finally found where his journal is isn't that something?? sweet. i feel bad for chris because creepy ass alex greenwald actually updated and now is updating about him obsessively it's like hi, you're a freaking nutcase...move on! be happy chris is happy and with someone sane. shiiit. i think what mike and chris have is great and the only reason i'd be jealous of it is i wish i had someone in my life that could love me like that, that would find every detail about me something worth writing a novel about. i want to feel needed and i don't know i guess maybe one day i will, i don't want to just settle for anyone.. and anyone i would fall for is already taken because they're that great you know? someone else got to them first and realized what they had was so gnarly that they're holding onto them. i kind of wish i had done that months and months ago but maybe it's best things ended up how they are. it's a big step when you can actually be happy for someone you let go or cared a lot about and be happy that they are happy. and no i'm actually not talking about chris so don't worry. that was just stupid on my part and i'm totally over it. but anyways yes this is my update, rambling about my pathetic love life because i have nothing to update about. i mean like band wise there's not even anything...we were on the sharon osbourne show wednesday and our first us show with so.co. for the tour was last night. i'm hanging in there though i don't really have anything important to say. i don't want to go back to updating just once a month or something. so just bare with me. i don't know. it's fucking six am i am going back to bed- ryan