You've got Wires
New favorite song: Wires by Athlete
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I'm physically exhausted from working and school. I'm will die before I ever graduate. I really should start playing the lotto so I can be rich forever, sad that I would rather the easy way then the difficult route.
Looking at Gus sleep reminds me of my parents. They are currently vacationing in Florida for the week. It's nice to have the place to myself, and just lounge around with any free time I have.
My birthday is fast approaching and not sure what's even going on. I'd like to be with my friends, but not sure that I really want to go out or what. I probably should to live it up, I am 25, not 45...or will be 25 rather.
I'm beginning to see the sunnier side of single. It's easy, no one to answer to but friends... no worries about people cheating on you, no worries about your boyfriend being an alcoholic or sex pot. I don't feel obligated to romance anyone, which in turn saves time, money and heartache once I find that we in fact have no common ground with the expectation of being homo.
Work is silly, while speaking of homo. Some guy was cruising me all last night, gave my co-worker a slip of paper with his room number on it so I could go "hunt" him down. "NO THANKS." Why would I be interested in sleeping with anyone at a bath house? First, its gross - and everyone that goes there is easy. And I was thinking this the other day.... Sex is easy to obtain...its an easy way out. It's quickly satisfying of trying to fulfill someone's needs and wants, right? Well, why would people want that? Sure there must be some void in there life where for a couple of minutes that fulfills them. But often when I have sex with someone, I become sad afterwards and would really wish not do deal with that at all. So why take the easy road...and give myself a challenge and try to find true love/romance. I shouldn't settle for sex, I shouldn't settle for nothing less than what I want. This really isn't about settling, though, it's about not giving in to easy opportunities for quick satisfaction of not having someone in my life. And right now I don't know if I want someone like that in my life. I just want to have fun without the pressure of anything in my life and only to worry about myself and my happiness without some idiot involved. No so complicated but who knows....my attitude will change tomorrow about the whole boyfriend situation cause I do have several interesting prospects.
Speaking of prospects.... Steve from Club 20 came up to me while I was cleaning a room and told me he was leaving for the day and came up and kissed me, mouth opened and all - and I practically swallowed his tongue. First of all, I like to know what's happening, and I didn't see him putting anything in my mouth. Secondly, I was at work - the least sexual/romantic place ever to kiss someone. In fact, just thinking about my job makes me want to vomit from wall to wall. So the fact I was at work, and someone caught me off and stuck his tongue in my stomach just wasn't a good combination - so I just kind stood there while he was massaging my tongue with his....hmm... Yes, this job is interesting.
More to come....
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I'm physically exhausted from working and school. I'm will die before I ever graduate. I really should start playing the lotto so I can be rich forever, sad that I would rather the easy way then the difficult route.
Looking at Gus sleep reminds me of my parents. They are currently vacationing in Florida for the week. It's nice to have the place to myself, and just lounge around with any free time I have.
My birthday is fast approaching and not sure what's even going on. I'd like to be with my friends, but not sure that I really want to go out or what. I probably should to live it up, I am 25, not 45...or will be 25 rather.
I'm beginning to see the sunnier side of single. It's easy, no one to answer to but friends... no worries about people cheating on you, no worries about your boyfriend being an alcoholic or sex pot. I don't feel obligated to romance anyone, which in turn saves time, money and heartache once I find that we in fact have no common ground with the expectation of being homo.
Work is silly, while speaking of homo. Some guy was cruising me all last night, gave my co-worker a slip of paper with his room number on it so I could go "hunt" him down. "NO THANKS." Why would I be interested in sleeping with anyone at a bath house? First, its gross - and everyone that goes there is easy. And I was thinking this the other day.... Sex is easy to obtain...its an easy way out. It's quickly satisfying of trying to fulfill someone's needs and wants, right? Well, why would people want that? Sure there must be some void in there life where for a couple of minutes that fulfills them. But often when I have sex with someone, I become sad afterwards and would really wish not do deal with that at all. So why take the easy road...and give myself a challenge and try to find true love/romance. I shouldn't settle for sex, I shouldn't settle for nothing less than what I want. This really isn't about settling, though, it's about not giving in to easy opportunities for quick satisfaction of not having someone in my life. And right now I don't know if I want someone like that in my life. I just want to have fun without the pressure of anything in my life and only to worry about myself and my happiness without some idiot involved. No so complicated but who knows....my attitude will change tomorrow about the whole boyfriend situation cause I do have several interesting prospects.
Speaking of prospects.... Steve from Club 20 came up to me while I was cleaning a room and told me he was leaving for the day and came up and kissed me, mouth opened and all - and I practically swallowed his tongue. First of all, I like to know what's happening, and I didn't see him putting anything in my mouth. Secondly, I was at work - the least sexual/romantic place ever to kiss someone. In fact, just thinking about my job makes me want to vomit from wall to wall. So the fact I was at work, and someone caught me off and stuck his tongue in my stomach just wasn't a good combination - so I just kind stood there while he was massaging my tongue with his....hmm... Yes, this job is interesting.
More to come....