relieving stress
i really dont know why i suddenly decided to check this. it's funny the things that people do when they start to get desperate. Most of my friends have pretty much abandoned me, for something that i still dont believe i did wrong. they accused me of not caring that Asia's moving to California. "not caring." thats the bigest crock of bull i've ever heard. i love those girls with all my heart, and would do anything for them. thats why it tears me apart to have them rag on me and harass me nonstop every time i see them. LeeAnn's left me a lovely voicemail. it pretty much sums up everything thats been happening lately:
"Heather, you bitch. i hate you. fuck you. we're not friends anymore."
You'd think a girl wasnt allowed to see her boyfriend, that it's some kind of immoral sin. the sheer fact that they are so willing to through away what we had because of a bit of jealosy and miscommunication is astounding to me. Meg and Ang are probably the only two people that i have a chance of talking to. they are the only ones who will actually listen, and wont make up their minds before i can even open my mouth. Jaimi's a good friend, and wont leave me, that much i know for certain. hell, she was even concerned when Josh and i had a small fight, and WANTED me to go see him and make it all better.
today dave and his new fiance, sarah came over for the 4th of july party. i would have invited the girls, but my mom suggested it was just family this time. we had so much fun, it was unbelieveable. it's nice to feel like i can do no wrong for a change. after today, i feel like i can move on past all this childishness.
i'm done worrying about people who obviously dont give a shit about me. i'm through trying to make everyone happy except myself. i'm moving on. if they want to go with me, then so be it. if not, than it's their loss. i've already cried too much for them, and i'm done.
i'm feeling better already...
"Heather, you bitch. i hate you. fuck you. we're not friends anymore."
You'd think a girl wasnt allowed to see her boyfriend, that it's some kind of immoral sin. the sheer fact that they are so willing to through away what we had because of a bit of jealosy and miscommunication is astounding to me. Meg and Ang are probably the only two people that i have a chance of talking to. they are the only ones who will actually listen, and wont make up their minds before i can even open my mouth. Jaimi's a good friend, and wont leave me, that much i know for certain. hell, she was even concerned when Josh and i had a small fight, and WANTED me to go see him and make it all better.
today dave and his new fiance, sarah came over for the 4th of july party. i would have invited the girls, but my mom suggested it was just family this time. we had so much fun, it was unbelieveable. it's nice to feel like i can do no wrong for a change. after today, i feel like i can move on past all this childishness.
i'm done worrying about people who obviously dont give a shit about me. i'm through trying to make everyone happy except myself. i'm moving on. if they want to go with me, then so be it. if not, than it's their loss. i've already cried too much for them, and i'm done.
i'm feeling better already...