Author: Nara@
ry0_geePairing: YamaJima
Genre: Romance, High School, Slice of Life
Rating: PG -13
Summary: Yuto is a very quite guy and never talk with others. People call him mute, people call him weird and he always end up being bullied. He doesn't have any friend. His friend was only an abandoned kitten and Ryosuke is trying to be a replacement for that kitten as Yuto's pet.
Prologue Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7
“Y-Yuto-kun, a-are you angry?” Ryosuke’s heart is thumping fast as Yuto’s hand is on his neck, caressing the collar and at the same time, he scared to see Yuto’s serious expression but there's a glimpse of sadness in his eyes which Ryosuke thought it's because of Kyo, not knowing that it's actually because of himself.
"Ryo, why are you doing this to yourself?" Yuto moves his hand from Ryosuke's neck to his cheek.
"Because I love you", Ryosuke cups Yuto's hand on his cheek before he tilts his head to feel more of Yuto's warmth.
"That is not a good answer."
Ryosuke remain silent. His tears are threatening to fall on Yuto's palm.
"Do you feel sorry for me? For what happened to Kyo?"
"I am. It's my fault for what happened to Kyo. It is all my fault", tears escape through his long eyelashes and make their way down to his redden cheeks.
"You think by being my pet you can make me happy? Face it, Ryo. You can never be a substitute for a dead cat. No one can. How is that even possible? Why can't we just go back to what we used to be?" Yuto is cupping Ryosuke's cheeks with his both hands. From the bottom of his heart, he doesn't want to let go of his friend. Not yet. "Please Ryo…tell me you will change your mind. Tell me you will stop this nonsense. I can't bear to lose you too..." Yuto pray in his heart.
"Can't you see? It was me who can't go back. I don't want to go back being your best friend. I'm done hiding my own feelings. I want to express every bit of my love to you and I can do that if I’m your pet. I’m sorry Yuto-kun but I love you too much, I love you too much…" Ryosuke lowers his head down and tears are dropping on the bed sheet.
“Even so, you don’t have to do this Ryo”, Yuto raise the shorter head and thumb away his tear.
"Then...will you let me stay by your side…as a lover?" his question makes Yuto paused. His lips parted but no word is coming out.
"Yappari...dekinai yo ne? sou omotteta”, Ryosuke moves Yuto’s hands from his face.
"But why must you be a pet? It doesn't make any sense”, he said after a long silence.
“This is the only way that I could think of to atone for my sins, for causing Kyo’s death. I want to stay close to you, to protect you… from yourself. I’m scared that you might take your own life because I saw it in your eyes. But forgive me, Yuto. I got greedy. I want you to love me even though I know you can’t love me back. So at least, love me as your pet…love me like you loved Kyo… that would be more than having you love me as your friend…” Ryosuke confessed and again Yuto answered with silence. Only this time, his eyes are watery before he avert his sight down and bit his bottom lip.
“Yuto-kun, onegai…let me punish myself or I’ll feel guilty for the rest of my life. Please…let me be your pet”, he grip Yuto’s hand and rest his lips on his fist.
“For how long?”
“Until I cured your pain and until…you could love me as a human.”
Yuto bounce his head on the pillow while letting out a big sigh and cover his eyes with the back of his hand, hiding a drop of clear liquid that almost flow. As much as he hates it, he has to give up. Really give up. “Is this the end of our friendship, Ryo? What will happen between us from now on? How could I treat you as a pet? Will I ever fall in love more than I love you now?” There are so many questions invading his mind that he can’t seem to find the answers.
“You should get ready now”, Ryosuke stand up and almost take his step but a strong grip on his arm stopped him and he being pulled completely onto the bed. Yuto wrap his arm around the shorter and his free hand on Ryosuke’s head, running his fingers into his hair reaching for his scalp.
“Y-Yuto-kun? What are you-“
“Stay. Kono mama ja”, Yuto tightened his hug and rest his lips on Ryosuke’s bangs, saving every last moment that still left with the person inside his arms, as a friend. The moment he let go, new ‘relationship’ will take form. He wishes he could stop the time right now. He wishes he doesn’t have to let him go.
“I’m sorry…I love you…” Ryosuke replied the hug even tighter. The taller could feel Ryosuke’s warm breath against his neck.
How many times has he heard that? Those words seem to slip easily from Ryosuke’s mouth. Is that how simple it is to say you love someone? Will he be able to say those words to Ryosuke too someday? Even if it took him forever, will he wait for him? As he keep repeating the word ‘love’ he make him become more and more understand how much Ryosuke love him with all his heart. It would be a lie if he said he’s not even slightly touched by his sincerity.
“I love you so much…” even though it’s slow, Yuto still could hear Ryosuke muttering.
Again, he said those words for how many times now. He lost count. But why this time it’s like a beautiful melody into his ears hearing those ordinary words? Is it because of the relaxation that he gets by embracing this person between his arms? He never knew human body could feel this soft and so comfortable to hold. Without him realizing, he kiss Ryosuke’s hair and inhale deeply of his scent. He like how his smooth hair brushing his lips, tickling his nose.
The answer to all questions is simple. Yuto is opening the door of his heart to Ryosuke, slowly…
*******
Chinen resting his chin on his hand while twirling a pen between his fingers with his eyes watching Yuto’s back and then avert his sight to Ryosuke who’s sitting next to Yuto. The atmosphere between those two is so gloomy. Both of them are not talking much like usual. He wonders if they having a fight. What make him more curious is they came late together. It was weird but still he feels a bit jealous. They are passing the assignment paper from the front and when Ryosuke turn stretching his hand to pass the paper to the girl behind him, the black collar hidden under his shirt slightly exposed. The twirling pen dropped from Chinen’s frozen fingers and he’s stunned. He knows that collar. Why on earth Kyo’s collar around Ryosuke’s neck?
“Uwah, kawaii~ Yamada-kun, that collar is so cute~” said the girl who noticed that too. Ryosuke immediately clench his shirt with a gasp, try to cover his neck.
“Eh? Ah…s-sou? Aha, ahaha~” he’s giggling. He glances at Yuto while biting his bottom lip with irritated expression but Yuto just ignored him with a poker face. Inside, he’s laughing at the shorter. This morning, before they went to school Ryosuke wanted to take off the collar but Yuto stopped him and ordered him to wear it all the time. He did refuse at first because it’s weird to wear it at school but Yuto objected saying that he should follow what he says. This is the punishment for Ryosuke for wanting to be his pet so badly.
Chinen frowning. He doesn’t understand what is happening in front of his eyes. What exactly is going on between those two? He needs to find out. He poke Yuto’s back and he turn to him.
“N-Nakajima-kun, isn’t that Kyo-chan’s collar?” he whispered but it’s loud enough for Ryosuke to heard and he saw Yuto’s face change when the dead name being mentioned.
“What happened to Ky-”
*Criiingg!*
The school bell cut out Chinen’s question. Without wasting a time, Ryosuke grab Chinen’s hand and drag him out of the class.
“What is wrong with you? Hanase!” Chinen smack away Ryosuke’s grip roughly.
“Listen to me. You shouldn’t-” before he could finish his sentence, Chinen already pull his shirt’s collar.
“Why is this thing on your neck?”
“Because it’s mine now.”
“What the hell are you talking about?”
“Kyo is dead. She was murdered.”
Chinen’s eyes opened wide. He release Ryosuke’s shirt and stumble back.
“W-what? Who-who would do such thing?”
“Those scum bags who love watch Yuto suffer. So stop asking about his dead cat.”
Chinen stupefied. There’s only one person come to his mind that would do such cruel thing.
“Then, what about the collar? You wear it as a memorial or something?”
Ryosuke smirk and touch the collar with the tip of his fingers.
“It’s more than that.”
“What do you mean?” Chinen doesn’t like that smirk.
“Figure it out yourself”, he walk passes Chinen but then he stop and turns to that glasses guy.
“How about I give you a clue? We live together now~” said Ryosuke while grinning before he stepping away from Chinen who’s standing there, frozen.
*Bam!*
Chinen pushes Haruna against the shoe lockers making the girl hit her back hard. He still hasn’t let go his grips on Haruna’s shoulders.
“Why you killed the cat!” he shouts.
“I told you I’m gonna make him suffer, didn’t I?” Chinen’s anger rise up and he chokes Haruna’s neck, making her struggling to breathe.
“You’re monster! Look what you’ve done. Yamada is wearing that cat’s collar and he lives together with Nakajima now. Do you know what that means?!” Haruna is choking and her hands are struggling to release her neck from Chinen’s grip.
“You’re not making him suffer, you threw Yamada right into his arms!” Chinen let go of her neck and she fell on the floor, coughing from the choke but she did listened every single of his words. She didn’t expect any of those. She though by killing Yuto’s precious cat will make he hates Ryosuke, separating them both but she underestimated Ryosuke’s love toward that guy.
“I’m done with you, bitch! I’m on my own now. Disappear or I’ll make chaos of what you’ve done until you can’t even show your ugly face to anyone anymore!” Chinen kick the locker right beside Haruna’s head making her jolt in fear before he walk away.
Haruna knew she did a big mistake. She cries while ruffling her own hair, clenching her scalp. Then she’s laughing out loud before she cries again, like a crazy woman. That is the last day Chinen and everyone else saw Kawaguchi Haruna in the school and they never see her ever again.
*******
“Let’s drop at the supermarket before we go home,” Yuto said when they are walking home together after school, remembering that nothing left in his fridge.
“Wai~ Yuto-kun is taking me for a walk~” Rysouke rise up his both hands in joy.
“I said we’re going to the supermarket.”
“It’s the same thing, deshou~” he said while grabbing Yuto’s hand.
“W-what are you doing?” Yuto pull back his hand from Ryosuke’s.
“I can’t hold your hand? Should you put a leash on my collar then?” he rise up his chin and pull his shirt a bit to show the collar on his neck.
“Baka!” Yuto whack Ryosuke’s head.
“Ittai yo~” he rub his head where Yuto’s whacked him while pouting. But then Yuto grab Ryosuke’s hand away from his head and continue walking while dragging him behind. Ryosuke’s surprised face slowly curving a wide smile while blushing as he feels so happy holding hands with Yuto like this. The thing that he could only imagined before.
“Ne~ can I call you Yuto from now on?”
“Call me whatever you like.”
“Un! Ehehe~” if only Yuto turn his head, he could see how beautiful Ryosuke’s smile is.
They are in the supermarket now, pushing the shopping cart together. Sometime they’re arguing of what they should buy. Ryosuke put what he wants in the cart but Yuto put it back on the rack and Ryosuke do the same thing to Yuto. But the shorter who always have to give up and let Yuto pick whatever he likes. Suddenly, they saw peoples running in rush toward the center of the supermarket. There is a big signboard saying they selling the meat with only half price and it’s extremely cheap.
“Yuto! Yuto! Should I get that for you?” he asked excitedly.
“Huh? There’s no way you can let yourself through such crowd. Those old housewives are surprisingly strong you know?” said Yuto, thinking it’s impossible for this chibi to get that meat.
“Ore ni makasero!” Ryosuke raise his fist in confident before he run to the war and Yuto just wish him good luck in his mind.
Few minutes later, Ryosuke run back to Yuto bringing along his victory.
“Yuto, mite~” he show the meat that somehow he managed to get it. He sure has tried so hard as he came back with terribly messy hair, untucked shirt and crooked tie.
“Pft~” Yuto try to hold his laugh but he failed and laugh out loud.
“Mou~ warauna~ pet my head as a reward”, Ryosuke demands while pouting.
“Hai, hai. Otsukare. Yoshi, yoshi~” Yuto pet the shorter messy hair, still laughing.
“Uwah~ ureshii~ Yuto daisuki~” Ryosuke feel very happy as Yuto pet his head willingly without he needs to ask many times.
Yuto paused and stop laughing. Ryosuke’s smile seems so bright until he can’t keep his eyes open. A sudden ‘thump’ in his heart makes him more confused. “Did he always look this cute?” he asked in his thought.
“Yuto?” Ryosuke called, wondering why the taller is spacing out while his hand still on his head.
“Ah. L-let’s pay these”, he snapped back to reality and walk ahead with the cart hiding his blushing cheeks. Ryosuke just tilting his head in confused.
That night, Yuto cooks the meat which Ryosuke successfully got from the battle with the fierce housewives. It’s hard to concentrate his cooking though when his pet keep whining “niku, niku” impatiently on the table while ticking his plate with the spoon. But it’s fun to see Ryosuke eat happily every time he feed him with his cooking. This ‘new relationship’ makes him see different sides of Ryosuke that he never saw before. He did took advantage of being his pet to show his love to him, clinging on him always, saying I love you, Yuto like every second, do anything to make him laugh, hugging him whenever he likes, licking him whenever he likes, lay on his lap whenever he likes, and when he did something good for him, all he asked for reward was pet his head. Yuto doesn’t mind he act all spoiled like this. Sometime when he feels sad remembering Kyo, Ryosuke’s smiles and pouts blows away all the pain in his heart.
Yuto almost sleep when he heard his bed creaking and feel movement under his blanket. He lifts the blanket and saw Ryosuke snuggle to his arm.
“Sleep on your own futon down there.”
“Iyada~ it’s cold. Besides, there’s nothing wrong with me to sleep with you. I’m your pet remember?”
“Suki ni shiro”, Yuto sigh.
“Arigatou~” Ryosuke lick Yuto’s jaw line.
“Stop licking me.”
“Eeh~ nande? Futsuu deshou?”
“Futsuu ja nai. You’re not even a cat.”
“Jya…should I kiss you instead?”
Yuto turn to scold him at first but when his face only an inch from Ryosuke’s makes him speechless. The yellow light from the lamp make those orbs sparkles and he can’t avert his gaze away as if he become paralyzed. Unconsciously, he brushes aside Ryosuke’s bangs from his eyes so he could see them clearly. When Ryosuke’s face becomes closer and closer, Yuto doesn’t move away. When Ryosuke clench on his shirt and breathe on his skin, he still doesn’t move away, and when Ryosuke’s lips touch against his, he doesn’t move either because…he’s waiting for it…
a/n: I love their new song ‘Where my heart belong’ but at the beginning of the song, Yama-chan look at dancing Chii dearly and somehow it make me jealous for Yuto *knock my head* Is that mean Yamajima love in Super Delicate will fade away? (=.=)