Utsukushii no Tamashii - 2
Author: NaraPairing: YutoYama
Genre: Tragedy, Supernatural, Fantasy, Romance, Angst
Rating: PG-13
Summary: If you made a contract with demon, the price that you have to pay is your soul in return for any wish that you ever desire. But what if, there is one human who want to give his soul in return for nothing? How will he handle a demon that ran away from hell just to entertain himself in human world? And a forbidden love between human and demon begin…
Note:Did you watch Ao no Excorsit? Imagined Yuto’s tail and his blue flame are similar as Okumura Rin’s.
Two
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Ryosuke is reading a shoujo manga but he can’t really focus on it because of annoying noise come out from his TV thanks to Yuto who keep changing the channels like every second. Until now, he still can believe that he is living together with a demon, a son of the King of Hell on top of that. He averts his eyes toward Yuto who is sitting in front of him. From his back, he looks just like a normal human except his black tail which is close to his legs right now. The end of Yuto’s tail is so fluffy and he is wondering if it is soft to be touched. Ryosuke gulped his saliva. He really wants to touch it. Slowly, he moves his hand toward Yuto’s tail and he glances at him make sure that he didn’t notice. He almost touches it but the tail suddenly moves to the right make his palm only touched the floor. Ryosuke reaches his hand toward the tail one more time but then it moves to the left made him missed again. But Ryosuke doesn’t give up, he keep trying. This time, his fingers almost touch the fur but suddenly the fluffy part of Yuto’s tail is burning with a blue flame.
“Whoa!” Ryosuke screamed and fall back, totally shocked of what he is seeing.
“You know, demon’s tail is very sensitive. Don’t even think of touching it” Yuto turns his head and his lips curving a smirk while wagging up his flaming tail. Ryosuke eyes widened. Not only Yuto’s tail is covered with flame but there are horn shaped flames on his head too and his scarlet eyes are redder than usual. It is a frightening sight for Ryosuke and he is trembling. This is the first time he ever saw Yuto looks this scary. Ryosuke gasped when Yuto crawls toward him. He wants to run away but his legs feels too weak to move an inch.
“Don’t be afraid. I won’t burn you. Wanna see it?” Yuto raise his right hand and in a second, his hand is covered by a blue flame. Then he is moving his flaming hand to reach Ryosuke’s face.
“N-no…don’t” Ryosuke’s voice is shaking terribly. As Yuto’s hand is nearing his face, Ryosuke shut close his eyes tight. A moment later, he feels a warm palm on his cheek. Slowly, he open up his eyes and he almost scream when he see flaming hand touching his cheek. But weirdly, he doesn’t feel hot and his cheek is not burning at all.
“See? I told you. I can control this flame. I can burn anything into dust or I can choose not to” Yuto slides his burning hand down to Ryosuke’s neck, making the shorter swallowed his saliva.
“I can touch wherever I like…” Yuto leans closer to Ryosuke while his hand is sliding down to his collarbone and his chest.
“without burning it” Yuto whispers the last sentences and he can feel Yuto’s breath against his ear. At that moment, Ryosuke’s heart is beating so fast as if it is going to explode in any second.
“Dakara, you don’t have to feel afraid, ne?” Yuto smiles and his flame are gone. Just like that, Ryosuke’s fear blown away by that smile. He can’t seem to understand it either, how this demon’s smile can put his heart at ease every single time without fail. Maybe he has gone crazy that is what he always told himself.
“Ryosuke”
Yuto’s voice snapped him back from his long thought. Ryosuke look at Yuto again but his smile has faded and his expression turned cold instead.
“You sure taking your own sweet time, don’t you?” Yuto asked with a serious tone.
Ryosuke who understand what his mean is clenching his fist. It has been few months already but he still can’t get Yutocraves for his soul. He thought that he has done everything to filled his soul with hate, despair, making it suit to that demon’s taste until at one point he doesn’t know what he should do anymore. Should he kill someone then? The only person that he wants to kill the most, his parents werealready deathso what’s the point of killing someone who he doesn’t hold any grudge against with? And to be honest, having Yuto by his side for these several months becomes something comfortable for him, makes him forget about his loneliness and sometimes he even forget about his own purpose.
“I’m not that patient, Ryosuke” he said and his piercing red orbs are glaring right at him.
………
“Don’t forget that I’m not bonded to you with a contract. I can leave you whenever I want”
Ryosuke is walking in the middle of the night without destination and Yuto’s words keep haunting his mind over and over again. After hearing such things, he went out from his house although it’s already late at night. Yuto was saying the truth, but it hurts a lot. He wonders why.
“That stupid demon! I’m giving my soul for free, can’t he at least wait for it?” he said angrily while kicking an empty canthat he sees in front of him. The empty can flew quite high and hit someone’s head. A middle aged man who seems a bit drunk hissed in pain. He turns to Ryosuke with a fierce look but when his eyes lay on pretty guy in front of him, his face got soften and walks toward Ryosuke with his staggering steps.
“Ne~ young boy, wanna play with this lonely uncle?” the drunk man said while pulling up Ryosuke’s chin. His breath which is reek with alcohol makes Ryosuke wants to puke, his dirty wrinkled hand caressing his cheek gross him out but he doesn’t avoid him. When that old man dragging him into the nearest love hotel he doesn’t even try to escape. He is terribly scared, his eyes are tearing up but he is smiling at the same time. He knows exactly what will happen to him once they entered a room, he is being forced to remember those horrible things his stepfather did to him makes his whole body shuddering in fear but Yuto’s face in his mind is the only thing that gives his strength to curves a little smile.
“If I do this, he will desire me more” - that is what he keep telling himself while he is beneath that old man, surrendering his whole body to be toyed with.
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It’s almost dawn when Ryosukereached his place. He can hardly walk straight, his body hurts everywhere but it’s nothing compared to the stabbing pain he feels in his chest. He paused once his hand holds the doorknob. What will happen when he opens the door? Will he sees Yuto? Is he waiting for him? And…will he desire him a bit more? Ryosuke leans his forehead against door.Last night was a hell for him. Just from remembering it, his whole body is trembling. Ryosuke bite his lower lip hard, trying to hold his tears and contained all those mixed up feelings deep down inside him. He asked for this. He should accept his fate that he created by himself. Ryosuke takes a deep breath before he opened up the door. As soon as the door opened, Ryosuke sees Yuto is sleeping soundly on his bed.
“I never knew demon need to sleep too” said Ryosuke, sighing. He feels a bit disappointed Yuto didn’t wait for him. Why would he? Ryosuke scoffs when he thought that. The sound of the closed door awakes Yuto from his slumber.
“Ryosuke? Where the hell have you been for the whole night?” Yuto asked while yawning. Ryosuke didn’t answer, he just walk toward his bed looking so exhausted.
“Move. Let me sleep” Ryosuke ordered.
“Hai, hai” Yuto stands up from the bed lazily and walks past Ryosuke but then his feet stopped. Before Ryosuke could throw his body onto the bed, he feels a sudden grip on his arm and Yuto pulled him into his embrace. Ryosuke dumbfounded but his heart race crazily when Yuto sliding his nose against his ear down to his neck.
“What’s this? You’ve become this delicious in just one night” Yuto tightened his arms around Ryosuke and start licking his neck.
“Ngh…D-do you desire me now?” asked Ryosuke between his moan.
“Ah…I really want to devour you” Yuto breathes against his ear sending shivers down his spine. Those words makes Ryosuke’s hope rise up high and his heart filled up with happiness. He is panting heavily when Yuto suck his neck hard.
“But it will be such a waste. I shall wait until you’re fully ripened” said Yuto. Then Ryosuke buried his face into Yuto’s chest, his hand clenches on Yuto’s back tightly.
“H-ha ha ha” Ryosuke started to laughs but then his voice is breaking and he cries to his heart’s content. Even though Yuto didn’t take him now but to be touched like this, to feel that he is being desired by him even just a little is more than enough for him. He is really happy but it hurts. It hurts too much. To make Yuto feel this way toward him is a torture. What must he do to get gain his attentions…like last night. He doesn't know what else he can do. If that is what it takes to fill his soul with hatred then he has to do thing that he despises the most, this one thing that terrified him like hell. Ryosuke cries even harder. Yuto just watch him cry in his arms while smiling.
“Happy but misery, contented but torturing, that wavering soul of yours…I love it” Yuto licks his lips.
However, there is this stench somewhere that he can’t stand it. A stench when his delicious food was being touched by a filthy hand. Yuto’s expression turned dark and his tail is on fire.
A/n: First of all, gomenasai! *bows* I’ve been disappear for quite some time. I don’t mind if no one remember me and this fic. Lot of things happened last year which made me from stop writing. Sometime I feel like I can’t write anymore but your guy’s fics is the only thing that motivates me. Ah, gomen ne, even though I follow your fics I never once drop any comment. I decided to go all silent until I can get to hold myself together again. But I can’t really say that I will write actively like before. See, I can only wrote chapter two this short *sigh*
I will keep trying to write but I can’t promise to update my fic soon. Minna, please don’t give up on me, ne?