Serzone fun
Serzone is the other medication that they're going to put me on. It sounds rather dangerous. Lots of liver failure, and my liver seems ultra sensitive since I took my little jog down OD lane. -_-; No wonder the combo isn't freaking FDA approved. Yet this does not phase me. It all will be what it will be, I guess.
On another note I'm SICK OF THE HOTEL. MAJORLY. I think it's adding to the depression. Everyone was out having fun last night and I missed it because I was with my MOTHER at the HOTEL. I had an awesome steak dinner, though, since Dad visited his "girls" last night. He and the hamster have an unholy bond. I worry about his mental health sometimes. XD
I hate it, but I keep comparing this year to last year and even Freshman year and everything seems to have gone downhill for me. The only person in the remotely same boat as me is Martha, and she's probably doing better than me anyway. Not that I'd know. I don't talk to her, or anyone for that matter. What do i have to say? "Gee, I'm not really sure how I'm doing because I'm so far gone I can't feel anything. Like stuff that used to make me HAPPY or SAD? not so much. And I know I SHOULD feel stuff, and I start to cry. Then I go to sleep because I'm bored because when you have nothing that makes you feel you get bored REAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLY easily."
Wow. That would go over really well. Especially when i have basically no affect or tone of delivery in my voice. I just sound tired all the time. Sure I laugh now and then, but then it's really fake sounding and really loud, like its more of a learned response than anything else.
Will this never end?