Sep 21, 2007 01:37
One year ago today was the day I bonded with my now ex-girfriend Laura at an anime club meeting and listening to her MP3 player, and looking at funny graffiti on the way down the steps of the Humanities Building. What a difference a year makes. For 9 of the past 12 months, she and I were really close friends, then lovers for a short time, but now she can barely stand me. Oh well...it's for the best, because, while she was fun to be around, she never really treated me right anyway. And because her grades suffered while she was with me, I'm afraid I was never the best for her either.
Meanwhile, the anime club meetings are being held in a snazzy new room with a screen and projector. The club has found it's home, though the meetings have become all but sausage fests. But I really don't care. Now in other areas of my life, there are doors slowly opening, and girls who might have some interest in me, either as a close friend or perhaps something more, and in time when I am ready, I will see where things go. Hopefully before too long I can find a girl who will treat me right. Also I have found a lunch group to "replace" the company I had with Laura last semester, in Aleytys, James, and occasionally NoV and Lane. I will probably be eating lunch with them on Tuesdays and Thursdays from now on this semester, when last semester I was often with Laura. That will help me get over the last remaining empty pangs in my school day, when I half expect in my subconscious that she might call me around 12:15, but know in my conscious mind that she won't.
All this and she has just recently unbanned me from commenting in her LJ, but that doesn't mean a whole lot--I still don't feel she cares about me, though I do still care about her. Oh well, I have my hands pretty full with Graduate School, and this weekend I AM going to AWA. Plenty of fun and adventures, not to mention, FOOTBALL TO WATCH, between classes, studying and work, and it seems this year will continue to be a great one indeed. On that note, no one has posted to my LJ in a month now; sometimes I wonder why I even bother. Still, I do this for me, not anyone else. And I will learn to be happy with myself!