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Livejournal is stupid and overrated. I know Its an online journal and such, and so I am gunna say what I would say to my own diary, because I need to get my feelings and thoughts out.
Well life isnt so grand. My family is part of the problem. Its really hard living in a family of 8. I hate going in public with my family because my little brothers and sisters ALWAYS start to fight and argue which leads to bigger problems. There never seems to be peace and quiet. I hate how my older brother has been getting on my case about everything lately. I hate it when I get yelled at for stupid things, and then my parents start fighting. Yeah I know I may sound selfish complaining about my family right now, but I don’t care. I don’t think you know what Its like to live in a big family that always fights and doesn’t have a lot of money. And Right now my friends arent the greatest thing either. Sometimes I have a hard time of seeing who is actaully a true friend. I have a strong feeling that I have a “friend” who pretends to be my friend because Im friends with someone their friends with. Dude if you honestly don’t like me then I think you should have the guts to tell me that. Whenever Im not in the greatest mood, I cant count on anyone to cheer me up except for one or two people. It truly hurts me to know that I only have one or two friends who will always be there for me. And to top things off, Im not going to Australia and Hawaii this summer for the Down Under Games to run for the Michigan team because its wayyyy to much money, $4000. It is a once in a lifetime opportunity for me, but I just cant go. I got invited to go to other things, like an overseas soccer tournament, but I don’t think I will do that. I got invited to run in this race to help people with diseases and I guess Im doing that. I just hope this year 2005 brings hope for me.