The days...
the days are winding down towards IT...blah...I'm apathetic and bored today. and yesterday. and. and.
i do have depression. I've done more research since last time, and I'm sure it's a big part of what's bothering me. I don't know if i feel like doing anything about it though. I need to sleep now. I don't want to be happy.
people, as I knew before and no for sure now - are mean and bad. We're such ugly people - looking all the time for negativity and a chance to feel better than others. When you look at yourself in the mirror, are you this type of person? Always having to put up a front, always firing off a biting, mean answer before thinking it through? Lazy, mean and stupid. Someoen fix everyone - please. Paganism and Buddhism doesn't teach that shit.
And that makes me more depressed...thinking of how mean people are. Is noone in htis world supportive anymore?
I don't like the drugs, but the drugs like me.
-MM
i do have depression. I've done more research since last time, and I'm sure it's a big part of what's bothering me. I don't know if i feel like doing anything about it though. I need to sleep now. I don't want to be happy.
people, as I knew before and no for sure now - are mean and bad. We're such ugly people - looking all the time for negativity and a chance to feel better than others. When you look at yourself in the mirror, are you this type of person? Always having to put up a front, always firing off a biting, mean answer before thinking it through? Lazy, mean and stupid. Someoen fix everyone - please. Paganism and Buddhism doesn't teach that shit.
And that makes me more depressed...thinking of how mean people are. Is noone in htis world supportive anymore?
I don't like the drugs, but the drugs like me.
-MM