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I am little disappointed. Not really depressed but kind of. I dont knkow what's happend in the past 4 years, but so many things have changed. I am finding that the boy I get along with the most is completely out of my life and probably will never show up again. I totally regret that. I miss him like crazy. It still hurts to think of what I've done. But I know God has a better plan then what I could have gave to myself. I am happier with His plan its just that I guess I'm thinking of what could have been. I am completely confused. The one thing I do know is that I am in the will of God. I know he wants me where I am and where I will be (for schools next year). Its completely evident. How do you deal with whatever the crap I'm dealing with? Is it regret? Is it worry? Most likely its worry but I guess I just keep thinking about what could have been and missin him. :\