my "uneventful" tuesday night/wednesday morning.
well my tuesday night was...well interesting....... it started out with sergio iming me. of course he asked if he could come by. and i was able to say yes. he comes by at about 11, and we started talking. we went on and on about things. about us, things we actually never knew about each other. then it kinda faded out. we both fell asleep, lying down on the concrete next to each other(not really close but close enough). i woke up and watched him sleep for a few minutes. he looked so peaceful, and i felt that it was the perfect moment for me to kiss him. but i didnt. it wasnt my place. it wasnt the time. i fell back asleep, until i felt his eyes on me. a few moments later, i woke up, and i smiled. we kept on talking some more, about our regrets, people we had been with. i had kinda fallen asleep. i wasnt really asleep, but like a nap sort of thing. he tousled my hair and asked if i was sleeping. i smiled and said no. then we started a game where one of us would offer a word and the other had to fashion a sentence out of it. i said, for the first word, "awkwardness". and he asked me this:"have you ever felt like you wanted to kiss someone but you dont?" i said yes, but i always end up stopping myself. he asked me why. and i replied that i felt that maybe they (or him in reality) wouldnt have wanted that. we kept on. until suddenly i asked him a question.
me:what were you thinking when you were watching me sleep?
sergio:you knew i was watching you sleep?
m:mm-hmm.
s:oh, i was thinking about....*he chuckles shyly*....how i should wrap my legs around you.
m:hmm. *i smile*
he finally admitted to me that he liked me alot. and i told him that i liked him alot too. we both thought that it would be awkward, and yet it wasnt because it was honest. and it felt wonderful.
after awhile, i laid right next to him on my side. his hand lightly touched my shoulder. and i said that he could leave his hand on my shoulder, that i wouldnt mind. he said ok and he began caressing my shoulder, my side, lightly over my hip. all at once, i grasped his hand after he stopped. he wrapped his legs around mine and he squeezed me tightly. i felt so....wonderful. i fell asleep again.
we began to think that my dad came out, so we sat up really really fast. but he didnt, so we laid back down, and since we lost our original position, we made a new one. he laid on his back, and i laid on him. his arm was right around me, my hand was in his hair. all of a sudden, he turned me and him around, placed his lips on mine, and we began to kiss. i felt so much passion, from him and me.
then my dad came out, and he told me to come in. he left us to say bye in privacy. we both were so shy. we werent supposed to have done anything. but it was done. we both felt so weird. and so we both agreed that it shouldnt have happened. and that it wouldnt make anything weird between us. we talked some more then i went in.
i got in trouble for not coming in as soon as i was supposed to. but i was still reeling from the non stop kiss, and the warmth that i felt.
i went to sleep. actual sleep. i slept from 4:45 to 11:30. amazing.
he makes me feel wonderful.
i wonder if it could ever work.
i doubt it.
but let me revel in the memories.
me:what were you thinking when you were watching me sleep?
sergio:you knew i was watching you sleep?
m:mm-hmm.
s:oh, i was thinking about....*he chuckles shyly*....how i should wrap my legs around you.
m:hmm. *i smile*
he finally admitted to me that he liked me alot. and i told him that i liked him alot too. we both thought that it would be awkward, and yet it wasnt because it was honest. and it felt wonderful.
after awhile, i laid right next to him on my side. his hand lightly touched my shoulder. and i said that he could leave his hand on my shoulder, that i wouldnt mind. he said ok and he began caressing my shoulder, my side, lightly over my hip. all at once, i grasped his hand after he stopped. he wrapped his legs around mine and he squeezed me tightly. i felt so....wonderful. i fell asleep again.
we began to think that my dad came out, so we sat up really really fast. but he didnt, so we laid back down, and since we lost our original position, we made a new one. he laid on his back, and i laid on him. his arm was right around me, my hand was in his hair. all of a sudden, he turned me and him around, placed his lips on mine, and we began to kiss. i felt so much passion, from him and me.
then my dad came out, and he told me to come in. he left us to say bye in privacy. we both were so shy. we werent supposed to have done anything. but it was done. we both felt so weird. and so we both agreed that it shouldnt have happened. and that it wouldnt make anything weird between us. we talked some more then i went in.
i got in trouble for not coming in as soon as i was supposed to. but i was still reeling from the non stop kiss, and the warmth that i felt.
i went to sleep. actual sleep. i slept from 4:45 to 11:30. amazing.
he makes me feel wonderful.
i wonder if it could ever work.
i doubt it.
but let me revel in the memories.