it's only tuesday....

[ruthinator]

eh today was alright except for the fact that i was driving on the white church bridge comming home and who do i see?????...none other than shawn driving...it was mad weird!..heck yes!.....so now after seeing him i began to think about some stuff well today... i thought about how somewhere i have built up bitterness towards him, i know that i shouldn't because i should be cool with everything but mabye sometimes when you don't cry on the outside.well i still cry in my heart, rather than sadness i have anger? i don't like it i want everything to be cool in a sense that, i am not angry at him for ending things between us..i hope you know what i am talking about..but i really want the bitter feelings to go away soon!!!! and i also thought today about my relationship status and how i don't have one...haha being single sucks granted but i think i am just gettting used to it and don't really hate it but don't love it? i don't even know if i am making ANY sense but all of these emotions are comming out and as soon as i remember them i am typing them out so sorry if this seems dumb to you. But anyhow..i feel like somehow i have put on this sort of "pitty party" like whoa is me i got dumped!...psh please big deal i've gotten dumped before...oh well i really want to be happy with my status and who i am....i really wish i had more confidence within myself...eh we can only try...hahaha so i don't know...mabye my bitterness with this guy is really me bitter about myself?...i have no idea i am just trying to sound deep!...haha i'll update more on my love life or lack of later

<3 peace