Occurances of the day
I guess now would be a good time to talk about the day. From a certain conversation that occured yesterday, James got mad at me. I was very upset with him earlier that week and vented all my frustration to Marcy which included me sayin I wanted to break his heart. This was all said because I was pissed off. I was never planning on really doing something that devious and completely forgot about it until this morning when I got the phone call from Marcy. She had told him what I said while she was drunk. So later in the afternoon I had to explain to him that he was never meant to hear the comment and that it was just used to blow off steam. Like when you say "I'm gonna kill her/him." You don't really mean it. You just are frustrated and need to let it all out. So now things seem to be fine.
I am deeply upset by the fact that Marcy drank yesterday. It was the first day of this deal of ours and she didn't make it. Wanda and I are going to need to get her friends in on it because this is not some selfish act of ours. She has come to us with this problem that she wants to overcome and she needs the support from everyone she knows. If this doesn't end soon I fear it will just get much worse. What is going to happen when she turns 21 and can buy alcohol?
I fear that I'm not doing as well with the cutting back as I had hoped for. I must admit that I have had far less today than normal, but I was trying to only have two or three. This is going to be much harder than I thought. Thank God winter is coming. I like smoking outside and most of the time have to, but if it's really cold out I won't want to go out there.
Let's see what else did I do today? Well, I stopped into Subway earlier to get Marcy and Jenny was working. I love her! She is just a big ball of energy and constantly happy. I swear I could be upset about something but when she shows up that fades away. I love it! I also spent some time online talking to Wanda. We were talking about the four of us (Wanda, Emily, Marcy, and I) moving out and getting an apartment together. It would be so much fun and I think we would all be more relaxed being away from our family. I know I will.
Well that's it for now. Marcy said she's going to call me when she finished with the play practice so maybe I'll be writing in here later.
I am deeply upset by the fact that Marcy drank yesterday. It was the first day of this deal of ours and she didn't make it. Wanda and I are going to need to get her friends in on it because this is not some selfish act of ours. She has come to us with this problem that she wants to overcome and she needs the support from everyone she knows. If this doesn't end soon I fear it will just get much worse. What is going to happen when she turns 21 and can buy alcohol?
I fear that I'm not doing as well with the cutting back as I had hoped for. I must admit that I have had far less today than normal, but I was trying to only have two or three. This is going to be much harder than I thought. Thank God winter is coming. I like smoking outside and most of the time have to, but if it's really cold out I won't want to go out there.
Let's see what else did I do today? Well, I stopped into Subway earlier to get Marcy and Jenny was working. I love her! She is just a big ball of energy and constantly happy. I swear I could be upset about something but when she shows up that fades away. I love it! I also spent some time online talking to Wanda. We were talking about the four of us (Wanda, Emily, Marcy, and I) moving out and getting an apartment together. It would be so much fun and I think we would all be more relaxed being away from our family. I know I will.
Well that's it for now. Marcy said she's going to call me when she finished with the play practice so maybe I'll be writing in here later.