im sorry
i try to find out whats really wrong, when in all reality i have no idea. the tears wont stop comming and my hands wont stop shaking. idk how to feel about everything aspeshaly this one thing. i dont have any control n e more and thats really true. i cry all alone, but when someone tries to help i push away...... why am i like that u say, the truth layes still and fades away all on its own. In some digree i know why he did what he did, but in other ways i really dont know. my stomic is sick, and my thoughts wont go away.... i really want them to. i find some way to cope with it all and when i find one way it hurts some one new. idk how to feel so i get mad... and thats how i am rite now... mad for no reason. willing to throw it all away, beacuse it hurts. im so sorry that he did what he did. and that he felt like he didnt have any other way.
RIP brendan
RIP brendan