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So I'm a douche bag. No really, stay with me on this one. I want everyone to know this.
It was a real asshole move of me to write like this about Pierre on my journal and not talk to him about my problems. Hey, I'm not good with confrontation, and I was scared. So is everyone else, right? I need to grow up, and I need to learn how to communicate with people. The friction between me and Pierre was not all his fault. A great deal, a GREAT DEAL of it was mine. Pierre didn't really want to single me out, he didn't want to be aggressive, he just likes the thrill of argument. I probably used to do that a lot with my mom. She used to tell people that I'd argue with a hole in the wall, and I'd tell her it wasn't a hole, it's a crack. I took a lot of the arguments to heart, probably because Pierre's pretty emotive. I know sometimes I seem angry when I get intense, so...
Anyway, things were really tense when the conversation started. I actually wanted to talk to him about it tonight but when I got downstairs the air was really thick. I figured either he had a bad night or he found the journal. Well, I don't know whether or not he had a bad night. So he was pretty mad, but now I'm glad he found the journal, even if it was an asshole thing to do on my part. Our personalities are really different, and the way we think about things really makes us clash. The whole thing about "MY TV and MY PS2" isn't the way Kevin and Pierre think. They put their DVDs down there and Pierre also has his stereo in the living room, and they just consider it communal. I'm not so used to that, so when we started out with that whole thing I always asked Pierre and Kevin if I could use their DVDs and what not (I asked Kevin last night to use Batmat Beyond, as well). So really I seemed pretty selfish when I brought the PS2 it to my room to play for a bit, and a lot of times it was up there for weeks at a time. (I got really into KHII and Final Fantasy XII...)
Anyway, we talked for a long time, and I'm really glad we did. Pierre and I may never have a really deep, close relationship, but there's no reason for what I did and there's no reason there has to be any emnity between us. I'm really sorry that I wrote those things about him, I'm sorry you had to read them, and I'm sorry to Pierre for doing so and not speaking to him about it instead. I'm really hoping to learn from this and keep things cool between the two of us.
It was a real asshole move of me to write like this about Pierre on my journal and not talk to him about my problems. Hey, I'm not good with confrontation, and I was scared. So is everyone else, right? I need to grow up, and I need to learn how to communicate with people. The friction between me and Pierre was not all his fault. A great deal, a GREAT DEAL of it was mine. Pierre didn't really want to single me out, he didn't want to be aggressive, he just likes the thrill of argument. I probably used to do that a lot with my mom. She used to tell people that I'd argue with a hole in the wall, and I'd tell her it wasn't a hole, it's a crack. I took a lot of the arguments to heart, probably because Pierre's pretty emotive. I know sometimes I seem angry when I get intense, so...
Anyway, things were really tense when the conversation started. I actually wanted to talk to him about it tonight but when I got downstairs the air was really thick. I figured either he had a bad night or he found the journal. Well, I don't know whether or not he had a bad night. So he was pretty mad, but now I'm glad he found the journal, even if it was an asshole thing to do on my part. Our personalities are really different, and the way we think about things really makes us clash. The whole thing about "MY TV and MY PS2" isn't the way Kevin and Pierre think. They put their DVDs down there and Pierre also has his stereo in the living room, and they just consider it communal. I'm not so used to that, so when we started out with that whole thing I always asked Pierre and Kevin if I could use their DVDs and what not (I asked Kevin last night to use Batmat Beyond, as well). So really I seemed pretty selfish when I brought the PS2 it to my room to play for a bit, and a lot of times it was up there for weeks at a time. (I got really into KHII and Final Fantasy XII...)
Anyway, we talked for a long time, and I'm really glad we did. Pierre and I may never have a really deep, close relationship, but there's no reason for what I did and there's no reason there has to be any emnity between us. I'm really sorry that I wrote those things about him, I'm sorry you had to read them, and I'm sorry to Pierre for doing so and not speaking to him about it instead. I'm really hoping to learn from this and keep things cool between the two of us.