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the hardest thing to do is say goodbye.
the hardest thing to accept is.. knowing that thereis no growth, there is only regret.
when i look up at you.. and you say you love me..i can't see anything. i can't see the love in your eyes. they are empty- unreadable. i have told you several times i didn't love you anymore.. half the time i just say it to say it.. im attached to you and i just want to be friends. i don't wanna kiss you, id ont wanna have sex with you, and i dont wanna love you. i hardly wanna be around you cuz everything you say infuriates me. when you call me crazy i feel abandoned... when im angry at you and you can't undestand why i just wanna cry inside because i know everything i say to you, everything i do for you, no matter how big, is empty to you. you say you have excuses to why everything is my fault. how i should say yes sir to everything you say and accept that everything is my fault. i see how my parents are.. and you are the equivalent of my father. unmotivated, lazy, and you act like the world owes you everything and you can just sit on your ass. i can't have that. i need a motivator. someone in love with life.
im sorry, ill always care for you.
goodbye