I don't know
I don't even know how to explain everything that's happened lately. . ... ...
Michael and me broke up a while ago.. he claimed it was over "finances". What a stupid reason to break up with a girl right? Yeah.. I know. I pretty much had to get down on my knees and beg for him to take me back. Took a couple days. I was so convinced.. that he was cheating one me or he had found someone else. Going to work was a nightmare. .. it's so hard to keep your head up high when you're completely miserable. Lucky for me, I can't hide my emotions either, so when I'm down.. people definately know it. I felt so lost.. so without myself. If you've really been in love.. you know how devastating it is to have someone leave you.. how your world turns upside down. There is nothing else in the world like it... & I hope that for the rest of my life it never happens again. I had completely lost my will to eat, sleep, or work.. when Michael came over and we had a talk.. he took me back... we went to Mickey D's after I got out of work so that I could get something to eat.. got him a sprite.. lol... then he took me to an alley and tried to sleep with me... of course I refused... took me home and then he pretty much left.. The next morning I called him.. and we got into a fight. He had supposedly broken up with me the night before. Oh man, heartbreak times two.. I cried myself awake that entire night.. as bad as this sounds, if it weren't for my two dogs surrounding me.. I probably would have started drinking uncontrollably.. I think two days went by.. before I started talking to him again.. I was so miserable.. I wouldn't get out of bed.. I slept through the entire day.. woke up in the night shaking so uncontrollably.. liike I had hypothermia.. on a pillow wet from tears.. and I would just start balling.. The next day I called him. *yesterday* and he ended up commin over cuz comcast was redoing all our wires outside.. so everythin keep gettin turned off and on... he reluctantly came over.. we talked for a long time.. I cried.. he cried.. I hadn't ate in a while.. a good while.. so he took me to buscemis.. my favorite pizza place ever.. I got through one slice and I was already full.. so abnormal for me.. came home and he begged me to be his friend.. I hurts like hell to know that someone only wants a friendship out of you.. when you love them so much. We got into a fight and he went home.. He came home and told me that his feelings had changed. That he was a different person.. angerier.. and he didn't love me as much anymore... That was all I needed to hear.. hung up the phone and just sank to the floor.. started crying uncontrollably.. pretty much had a nervous breakdown that went into an anxiety attack... during this time michael was talkin to me.. tellin me the real reason he broke up with me is cuz he didn't feel loved.. after my big breakdown and saying so many things i had been hiding inside for so long.. i guess he realized how much i loved him.. and that my love is true and real.. so now we're back together.. giving this one more shot. but at least, now he trusts me completely.. I can go out and do whatever I want.. and not have to worry about him getting mad.. things are different.. I feel so much lighter lately..
Well.. that's it.. hope you enjoyed the story
Michael and me broke up a while ago.. he claimed it was over "finances". What a stupid reason to break up with a girl right? Yeah.. I know. I pretty much had to get down on my knees and beg for him to take me back. Took a couple days. I was so convinced.. that he was cheating one me or he had found someone else. Going to work was a nightmare. .. it's so hard to keep your head up high when you're completely miserable. Lucky for me, I can't hide my emotions either, so when I'm down.. people definately know it. I felt so lost.. so without myself. If you've really been in love.. you know how devastating it is to have someone leave you.. how your world turns upside down. There is nothing else in the world like it... & I hope that for the rest of my life it never happens again. I had completely lost my will to eat, sleep, or work.. when Michael came over and we had a talk.. he took me back... we went to Mickey D's after I got out of work so that I could get something to eat.. got him a sprite.. lol... then he took me to an alley and tried to sleep with me... of course I refused... took me home and then he pretty much left.. The next morning I called him.. and we got into a fight. He had supposedly broken up with me the night before. Oh man, heartbreak times two.. I cried myself awake that entire night.. as bad as this sounds, if it weren't for my two dogs surrounding me.. I probably would have started drinking uncontrollably.. I think two days went by.. before I started talking to him again.. I was so miserable.. I wouldn't get out of bed.. I slept through the entire day.. woke up in the night shaking so uncontrollably.. liike I had hypothermia.. on a pillow wet from tears.. and I would just start balling.. The next day I called him. *yesterday* and he ended up commin over cuz comcast was redoing all our wires outside.. so everythin keep gettin turned off and on... he reluctantly came over.. we talked for a long time.. I cried.. he cried.. I hadn't ate in a while.. a good while.. so he took me to buscemis.. my favorite pizza place ever.. I got through one slice and I was already full.. so abnormal for me.. came home and he begged me to be his friend.. I hurts like hell to know that someone only wants a friendship out of you.. when you love them so much. We got into a fight and he went home.. He came home and told me that his feelings had changed. That he was a different person.. angerier.. and he didn't love me as much anymore... That was all I needed to hear.. hung up the phone and just sank to the floor.. started crying uncontrollably.. pretty much had a nervous breakdown that went into an anxiety attack... during this time michael was talkin to me.. tellin me the real reason he broke up with me is cuz he didn't feel loved.. after my big breakdown and saying so many things i had been hiding inside for so long.. i guess he realized how much i loved him.. and that my love is true and real.. so now we're back together.. giving this one more shot. but at least, now he trusts me completely.. I can go out and do whatever I want.. and not have to worry about him getting mad.. things are different.. I feel so much lighter lately..
Well.. that's it.. hope you enjoyed the story