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Wow it's been a long time since I updated. Well here's what's been going on lately:
Monday- I went to school like a good girl. I did my work and I think that was the day I bought a new agenda book since someone fucking stole mine. Just like last year, oh well, atleast I was smart enough not to put any pictures in it. I wrote my public speaking speech on monday, although I wasn't in school to do my speech. *sad* My acute dermatitis came back.. *growl* my hands itch so fucking bad.. and all the bumps.. its sick.. they came back from brushing my teeth believe it or not.. atleast I found the lotion I was prescribed for it.That's all I can remember about monday.
Tuesday- Went to school again. Did some reasearch on pfizer. I really want to work there, but all the jobs are so complicated, I'll never be that smart. Ever. If I did get a job there when I got out of high school I would have to move to ANN ARBOR.. which isn't all that bad. New life, I kinda look forward to that. Put off doing my thing for human relationships.. oh well.. lol.
Wednesday- Delayed Start. My dad didnt wake me up for school so I didn't go. I stayed with Thom.. we talked and went out to wendys and what not. I took my medicine.. which was okay.. I guess. I snuck on the computer because my dad left the cord out.. haha. i love it when he f.o.r.g.e.t.s. its sweet as hell.
Thursday- Thursday morning, I believe I had an allergic reaction in my sleep from my medicine. I started choking in my sleep because my throat started closing, and when I woke up I was getting so little air I knew I had to act fast or I was going to die. I was s o panicked that I didn't think to call 9.1.1. and I didn't have any benedryl because I never thought that that would happen, so I started idk.. pushing/massaging on my neck to cause contactions with the muscle. Little by little I started to get more air. I thought I was going to die. I finally was able to breathe ok through my nose, so I started balling my eyes out.. which made it worse cuz then I couldn't breathe again. It sucked. My dad came home and I was still so shoken up and my throat was still so tight. I didnt know what to do. My throat has been closing all day. My dad said it could be because Im sick, or that it could have been a panick attack.. idk, but I AM NOT TAKING MY FUCKING MEDS.. never this shit again. NEVER. So I didn't go to school. I got the computer, and about 12:30 I was calm enough to go back to sleep til 5. Thom left for work without waking me up, but I guess it's okay because I needed the sleep. When I woke up my throat was all tight again, and it gets worse when my parents smoke around me. I don't know what's going on and I'm really scared. I don't know what to do.
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