F^&%! HELL!
It's now finally hit me...
I am so depressed, apprehensive and scared about the move now...will it work out? will I even get this fucking house organised? Will Law be a good choice for me? I'm sad to be leaving my friends, but most of all my family. I'm gonna miss my mum and dad like hell, and I know it's hard on them too. I felt ready when I was at my old Uni to make new mates, but I don't feel ready to put myself out there and do it all again...
I really hope I can make at least one decent mate up there...One that I can just hang out with, go to pubs and shit and just explore QLD and do some new and exciting things.
I dunno, it's completely fucked how I can be excited one minute and then be completely fucked the next...My problem is that I care, perhaps too much what people think about me. I have all these fantastic and exciting ideas of what it could be like when I'm up there, but then I think otherwise, that the way I'm looking at it could all turn into shit and I'll be misserable the whole time I'd be up there...
There are two words I have been saying to myself over and over...and they are "PLEASE WORK" I can only hope that it will.
I am so depressed, apprehensive and scared about the move now...will it work out? will I even get this fucking house organised? Will Law be a good choice for me? I'm sad to be leaving my friends, but most of all my family. I'm gonna miss my mum and dad like hell, and I know it's hard on them too. I felt ready when I was at my old Uni to make new mates, but I don't feel ready to put myself out there and do it all again...
I really hope I can make at least one decent mate up there...One that I can just hang out with, go to pubs and shit and just explore QLD and do some new and exciting things.
I dunno, it's completely fucked how I can be excited one minute and then be completely fucked the next...My problem is that I care, perhaps too much what people think about me. I have all these fantastic and exciting ideas of what it could be like when I'm up there, but then I think otherwise, that the way I'm looking at it could all turn into shit and I'll be misserable the whole time I'd be up there...
There are two words I have been saying to myself over and over...and they are "PLEASE WORK" I can only hope that it will.