"Let me tell you"
i think i was wrong about this whole livejournal thing. Sure, some people like the pity they get from friends when they write about how they think there life sucks. Then other people just like it because its...well their journal.
well i feel like writing so thats what im going to do.
lately i've been kind of depressed. Though i'll never admit it if you asked. sometimes i feel like i don't have real friends. It may sound silly but i feel like no one really knows "the real" me. Now you may say im being stupid, but how can you know the real me if i don't even know me.
I have too many feelings about too many things. I want to find someone i can share them with. For too long i've always hid a piece of myself for fear that it wounld'nt be understood. i feel like im more then one person. im always changing to my surroundings. i act different around one group of people then i do others. i want to know the real me. i guess i find him when i write.
I sometimes i feel that im being measured by other people. i dont mind really. sometimes i like to see peoples ignorance. i see people who are afraid to hang out with, or even talk to someone cause they think they're better then that one person. But then again, no one really stops and trys to understand a person. be it a friend or peer.
i try not to measure people. to put one person above someone else. but at the same time i feel like im always below the "top 8". i just wish i had the feeling of being someones number one again. someone who's interested in what i have to say.
but then again, this is growing up isnt it. life wouldnt be as great if i didnt feel like shit sometimes.
well i feel like writing so thats what im going to do.
lately i've been kind of depressed. Though i'll never admit it if you asked. sometimes i feel like i don't have real friends. It may sound silly but i feel like no one really knows "the real" me. Now you may say im being stupid, but how can you know the real me if i don't even know me.
I have too many feelings about too many things. I want to find someone i can share them with. For too long i've always hid a piece of myself for fear that it wounld'nt be understood. i feel like im more then one person. im always changing to my surroundings. i act different around one group of people then i do others. i want to know the real me. i guess i find him when i write.
I sometimes i feel that im being measured by other people. i dont mind really. sometimes i like to see peoples ignorance. i see people who are afraid to hang out with, or even talk to someone cause they think they're better then that one person. But then again, no one really stops and trys to understand a person. be it a friend or peer.
i try not to measure people. to put one person above someone else. but at the same time i feel like im always below the "top 8". i just wish i had the feeling of being someones number one again. someone who's interested in what i have to say.
but then again, this is growing up isnt it. life wouldnt be as great if i didnt feel like shit sometimes.