January 31, 2008
Lots has been up lately, but very little of it is actually relevant to this journal entry.
I just finished up a Bible study. It was my third one. And each session I'm left with far more questions than answers. Perhaps, Jessie, you can take a stab at some of these.
1. Why, whenever something good happens, is it God?
2. When something bad happens, why is it "part of a larger plan" or human free will?
3. If murder is a sin, why was the flood that God caused just dandy?
4. How can God be alternately human in descriptions and "too large to understand?" If I can't understand him, I shouldn't be able to understand Him most of the time. It's fair to say that since I've never been God, I can't understand God. But to later turn around and attribute human personality traits to Him really throws me for a loop.
And that's just for starters. I've been trying to just shutup and listen to the Christian PoV, but... it's hard when I have so many questions and I feel that none of them are being answered. I literally force myself to stop arguing with the pastor in my head and just listen, but I'm getting aggravated. Especially when he doesn't answer the questions I ask. Aaaaaagh.
I'll write an update on general life soon.