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so yeah.... i forgot how to spend money on bullshit. Ive spent the last forever not having any money except enough for rent. Fuck i feel weird buying food with money. And any time i ever did have extra money it went into savings for our trip. If there was any tip money left over i would usually let jill use it to buy something he needed. I just said that i never really wanted anything. And that is true, i dont really want much at all.
so now here i am with an extra $105 and jill is gone, and honestly i dont know how to spend it. I mean i have a few things i'd like to have...but to buy them....im not sure if i can do it. i usually just wait until i dumpster them, most things i want turn up eventually.
im honestly sorta weirded out.
im thinking about just donating it to some anarchist projects around here, but that doesnt answer the question:"why cant i spend money on myself for random things i dont need, but just want?"
i dont know i dont know.
i taught my first freeskool class! It was called cheap and easy screenprinting. and it went off wonderfully. yay!ive been making some nice friends here. im glad for that. the communtiy here is awesome. the way they speak about ideas and desires...makes me happy.
off to buy! ....i guess.
so now here i am with an extra $105 and jill is gone, and honestly i dont know how to spend it. I mean i have a few things i'd like to have...but to buy them....im not sure if i can do it. i usually just wait until i dumpster them, most things i want turn up eventually.
im honestly sorta weirded out.
im thinking about just donating it to some anarchist projects around here, but that doesnt answer the question:"why cant i spend money on myself for random things i dont need, but just want?"
i dont know i dont know.
i taught my first freeskool class! It was called cheap and easy screenprinting. and it went off wonderfully. yay!ive been making some nice friends here. im glad for that. the communtiy here is awesome. the way they speak about ideas and desires...makes me happy.
off to buy! ....i guess.