Still trying to pick up those pieces...
Went home, it was way too short. Missed my mom and my family. It was a good thing I did go home. I needed to rest before I could pick up the pieces.
So much emotion and confusion has happened with me in such little time. I'm lost..but the only way to find my way is by doing this before it's too late. It's hard when you have someone you care for so much that's getting hurt. I just want to shoot my foot with a nail gun, hoping that I awaken from this dream. This isn't easy! I have God watching me from above...but watch is all he'll do. He wants me to make the decisions. He wants me to make my own choices. But what if I make the wrong ones, will I die unhappy, unloved or incomplete. Will I lose something that is so dear to me?
I really hope I get this resolved. I hope I get the answers that will give me reason to belive I am making the right decisions.
I know, for sure...that in the end all will be fine...
-Oliver
So much emotion and confusion has happened with me in such little time. I'm lost..but the only way to find my way is by doing this before it's too late. It's hard when you have someone you care for so much that's getting hurt. I just want to shoot my foot with a nail gun, hoping that I awaken from this dream. This isn't easy! I have God watching me from above...but watch is all he'll do. He wants me to make the decisions. He wants me to make my own choices. But what if I make the wrong ones, will I die unhappy, unloved or incomplete. Will I lose something that is so dear to me?
I really hope I get this resolved. I hope I get the answers that will give me reason to belive I am making the right decisions.
I know, for sure...that in the end all will be fine...
-Oliver