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Right now I'm really happy because I'm talking to Kiernan and Emily, and talking to friends usually makes me happy, but last night I was really sad. I started out thinking about walking with Dylan, Annie, and Savana everday until next session, and how much fun it would be. And then I thought, 'but wait, Wednesday the person might, and probably will, get out of jail' so it wouldn't really be safe, idk. And then I started thinking about me and Sarah, and how we've grown kind of apart, and we used to have a lot of fun together ... then all I could think of when I got hit, and every single thing came back to me that day - I was eating Dortos and watching the Fairly Odd Partents, Mury nocked on my door and I thought 'Oh shit, I forgot to walk to her house, so I let her in, she sat were I was sitting and starting eating the Doritos, and I got ready, then we left, walked down Parkside, crossed St. Paul, walked down Hardison and laughed at house 69, nocked on Sarah's door and Alyssa was there, they had two cans of silly string and we were playing with that, they had hair dye, chaised me around with it and I didn't want them to get it in my eyes and have me go blind so I let Mury put it in, I wrote JtS with the hair dye infront of Sarah's house in the street, Mury was whining that we should get Kiernan to hang out [we were going to go to the Dollar Tree and get more hair dye and silly string anyway ...] so we went there, went in Kiernan's house went out the back, my mom called and asked if everything was ok, I said yes, and then I said bye and I hung up, they had been walking so I caught up, Mury had a cap from a cap gun [just the caps] and she started thowing rocks at it, Sarah tried [I think it was Sarah who tried after Mury] Mury tried again, then I tried and we noticed the cap was broken, I put a rock back, and Kiernan put one back with her foot [I remember because I was staring at her shoelaces - my sister had the same ones at the time ...] then we were walking and pushing eachother acting stupid, and Mury kept pushing me, so when she wasn't looking I moved to Kiernan's left so we were in a line from [from left to right] me, Kiernan, Mury, Sarah, Alyssa [who was on a bike] then we saw this old man running in like a bright color [I think orange] and I whispered to Kiernan 'haha' because we all saw him, then I just remember everything in grey and an old man saying 'wanna get you ass kicked' and me covering, then I remember comosion, someone crying, someone running to get help, and someone screaming 'help, help, help' and then I remember someone putting there hand in my pocket, and I thought they were asking me how to call my mom and I started explaining, but I bet it was just mummbles or something because she was actually talking saying 'mrs. pecoraro? mrs. pecoraro? joey got hit!' and then I remember people putting a black and red plaid wool blacket on me, giving me a lot of napkins, I thought everthing was ok - and all of that was going like in fast forward, and since I was thinking of Sarah before it like stopped at Sarah, looking over me, while I had the thing on my head, and her crying and me telling her it's ok, and idk I just got really sad from it and started to cry [last night ...] I don't want people to feel sorry for me, this is going to be the last entry about the insident I just had to say that, sorry ...