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We've heard it in the movies before, "He ruined my life?" Or, "She ruined my life." But, it's the movies...the person is overreacting and in the end everything turns out alright.
Well, this isn't a movie; and I can honestly say that I ruined this girl's life and I have a new found hatred of myself that I can't describe. I mean just think about how bad things turned out for you to even say, in earnest, you ruined someone's life?
Because of me, she has completely shut herself out.
Because of me, she can no longer trust.
Because of me, she can no longer love.
Because of me, she doesn't want the company of friends.
All of this, and more, because of me.
She makes it on her own, entirely on her own. She likes it. Feels that it is the best way to live, now. But, to me, you can't live your life alone. You need friends by your side. To share laughs. To turn to when you need help. I know my friends have bailed me out in desperate times when I was at the end of my rope, almost quite literally.
This girl deserves the world, but I took it away from her long ago. She is successful, no doubt, but a success that comes with the price of solitude and alienation.
She deserves to love again.
She deserves friends who will stand by her side.
She deserves to trust.
She deserves to have her scars heal. The scars made from my own hand. But, that's why they are called scars. Because they will never fully go away.
I completely destroyed the girl that I used to know. And the worst part about it? She thanked me for it.
Fuck you Russ Ludwigson and damn you to hell. It should be you, not her.
Well, this isn't a movie; and I can honestly say that I ruined this girl's life and I have a new found hatred of myself that I can't describe. I mean just think about how bad things turned out for you to even say, in earnest, you ruined someone's life?
Because of me, she has completely shut herself out.
Because of me, she can no longer trust.
Because of me, she can no longer love.
Because of me, she doesn't want the company of friends.
All of this, and more, because of me.
She makes it on her own, entirely on her own. She likes it. Feels that it is the best way to live, now. But, to me, you can't live your life alone. You need friends by your side. To share laughs. To turn to when you need help. I know my friends have bailed me out in desperate times when I was at the end of my rope, almost quite literally.
This girl deserves the world, but I took it away from her long ago. She is successful, no doubt, but a success that comes with the price of solitude and alienation.
She deserves to love again.
She deserves friends who will stand by her side.
She deserves to trust.
She deserves to have her scars heal. The scars made from my own hand. But, that's why they are called scars. Because they will never fully go away.
I completely destroyed the girl that I used to know. And the worst part about it? She thanked me for it.
Fuck you Russ Ludwigson and damn you to hell. It should be you, not her.