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B and I talked tonight and decided we are just going to bite the expensive bullet and stay on the Queen Mary for a night and have their decadent champagne brunch the next morning. I was worrying about money like I always do, but we are getting $3,500 back from our taxes, so I figured fuck it. This will be our one vacation probably of the year. It's just an over night thing, but that is about all we can get away for right now with work and the kids.
The ship looks amazing and we're going to stay in an art deco state room that looks like it's still in the 30's and 40's. Love it! I asked B if I should get a new dress since that night we'll go out some place nice for dinner as well. He kind of gave me this silly grin.
Most of the time now I wear a big t-shirt and shorts. I wear a binder sometimes to hide my huge rack. I don't look very much like a girl unless I'm naked. B is use to it and doesn't complain. I was already wearing mens clothing when we started dating, so he knew what to expect. He often calls me his best boyfriend. It's very sweet. I'm fine looking like a dyke. But sometimes I just wish I felt better about the way I look. Like maybe we'd have sex more often if I felt attractive.
So I thought for the night it would be nice to go all out for him and wear make up, a dress, I was even thinking about dying my hair blonde, because he LOVES blonde hair and always says how he misses my long blonde hair. I don't even own any make up, so I'm thinking next week when I'm up in LA for the weekend I'm going to hit up a make up store and pick up some new good stuff to try. I really like Kat Von D's make up line, so I was thinking about splurging on some of that. Something smokey and grey with a dark red lip like an old classic pin up gal. And hopefully I can find a dress, some lingerie, and some really sexy heels. I figure if I can't find lingerie I like, which is always hard with my boobs of doom I'll just get some really sexy undies and really ridiculous fuck me heels that I can barely walk in to wear in our hotel room for him. I really wish we could take two separate cars so we could meet some place and be all done up to surprise him. I may still send him off to the bar on the ship, get ready, and then go pick him up at the bar. I'd love to strut in, in heels and a great dress for him. He's always said he'd love to go to some bar and pretend to pick me up. I'd love to walk in looking and feeling hot and let him pick me up, buy me a drink, and then leave together to go have dinner. He already informed me that there will be lots of hot sex. LOL
I am so looking forward to being some place that isn't our same old boring bed. And not worrying about waking the kids up. When we were younger I would put on music and strip for B and give him lap dances. When we were broke it was fun free sexy entertainment. So I'm thinking about putting some fun music like Adam Lamberts Strut and shaking my ass for him and really getting him going. I just want us to have total ridiculous decadent fun together that is all about him and I and having amazing yummy sex like we use too. Then the next morning we can fill our faces with amazing food on the ship, take a walk on the beach, and then come home. A perfect night away of just relaxing. Originally I thought about taking him to a burlesque show, but we both decided we'd just rather eat a nice dinner and be together in private to talk and enjoy each other. I'm already day dreaming about giving him the best blow job ever. LOL
The ship looks amazing and we're going to stay in an art deco state room that looks like it's still in the 30's and 40's. Love it! I asked B if I should get a new dress since that night we'll go out some place nice for dinner as well. He kind of gave me this silly grin.
Most of the time now I wear a big t-shirt and shorts. I wear a binder sometimes to hide my huge rack. I don't look very much like a girl unless I'm naked. B is use to it and doesn't complain. I was already wearing mens clothing when we started dating, so he knew what to expect. He often calls me his best boyfriend. It's very sweet. I'm fine looking like a dyke. But sometimes I just wish I felt better about the way I look. Like maybe we'd have sex more often if I felt attractive.
So I thought for the night it would be nice to go all out for him and wear make up, a dress, I was even thinking about dying my hair blonde, because he LOVES blonde hair and always says how he misses my long blonde hair. I don't even own any make up, so I'm thinking next week when I'm up in LA for the weekend I'm going to hit up a make up store and pick up some new good stuff to try. I really like Kat Von D's make up line, so I was thinking about splurging on some of that. Something smokey and grey with a dark red lip like an old classic pin up gal. And hopefully I can find a dress, some lingerie, and some really sexy heels. I figure if I can't find lingerie I like, which is always hard with my boobs of doom I'll just get some really sexy undies and really ridiculous fuck me heels that I can barely walk in to wear in our hotel room for him. I really wish we could take two separate cars so we could meet some place and be all done up to surprise him. I may still send him off to the bar on the ship, get ready, and then go pick him up at the bar. I'd love to strut in, in heels and a great dress for him. He's always said he'd love to go to some bar and pretend to pick me up. I'd love to walk in looking and feeling hot and let him pick me up, buy me a drink, and then leave together to go have dinner. He already informed me that there will be lots of hot sex. LOL
I am so looking forward to being some place that isn't our same old boring bed. And not worrying about waking the kids up. When we were younger I would put on music and strip for B and give him lap dances. When we were broke it was fun free sexy entertainment. So I'm thinking about putting some fun music like Adam Lamberts Strut and shaking my ass for him and really getting him going. I just want us to have total ridiculous decadent fun together that is all about him and I and having amazing yummy sex like we use too. Then the next morning we can fill our faces with amazing food on the ship, take a walk on the beach, and then come home. A perfect night away of just relaxing. Originally I thought about taking him to a burlesque show, but we both decided we'd just rather eat a nice dinner and be together in private to talk and enjoy each other. I'm already day dreaming about giving him the best blow job ever. LOL