wow been awhile

[russoak47]

ya its been awhile since i updated i couldent cuz my internet has been down so today was real good like wicked good it was a sick day until i made plans to go to the movies see first me an betti made the mistake of thinkin scott would bring us then scott bailed an then we called nick an he bailed to play poker so then we got to my house an tired to

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[__dr3am3r__]

wow i just read every single one of your entries cause i have a life completely. um I'm guessing you used to like me, and I think I knew it. but I think i was worried what other people were going to think and stuff, but i really did like you and you were my best friend. we had so many good times - w/ you and jooe the penguin <3. so now we aren't really friends or not even close to how we used to be at all. oh and one of the reasons i didnt tell you i liked you was because you always have these girls and stuff and i was scared that you would just go to one of them instead of me. but anyway this is something I wrote a couple a weeks ago, and wanted to say to you, but we havent hung out and i'm getting really worried that you dont feel the same and that i'm too late. but here it is..

I miss you soo god damn much I realized last night that I missed out on a superly good thing. We cold have had something we did have something.I'm ashamed of myself that I didn't realize it from the begining.I was to preocupied with other guys that were making me miserable and all the while you were making me so incredibly happy.Or maybe I knew what we had and knew it could turn into something much better then I could have imagined but I didn't want to accept the feelings I was having for you. Now we dont talk we arent close and things are so much different between us.I miss you I miss our good times.I miss being important to you.I miss you being part of my every day life.I hope you feel the same way that I do.And if you don't well I really truely did miss out on something that Ill never ever have again with anybody else. Your so special to me and you ALWAYS will be even if we arent friends.

there it is.