For the record.
Livejournal isnt a publication. Its a document of what im feeling momentarily. I think its fucked up for any indivudal to assume anything based on momentary ramblings made on a livejournal. The way ive conducted my journal to the present has been dissregarded pent up feelings,that not only don't matter,but are construed as lies. I will reiderate,that i am not a liar.
In the case of the livejournal stalker who can't form verbal communications without going into a rage of bullshit. I will say this. You need to realise that YOU upset me,and made me misserable for a moment. I know exactly how to get over it,and will continue to do so. But just know,before you had any prior knowlege to my feelings,you didnt say one god damn thing to me about how you felt about me. In wich now you state that you've felt this for a significant amount of time. Instead you continued to hang out with me on a daily basis,wich you've said was a mistake. But you still conciously did it. After the fact that emotions existed,YOU couldnt handle them. So you went on a tyrant spree of trying to break me in two. You succeeded and i feel like such a fool for letting any such person destroy my feelings. I have every right to feel the way i do,and think the way i do. And for anyone such as yourself to disscredit them is very fucked up and unintelligable.
Now in the case of the widespread drama ive received for NOT wanting to give information. I belive i sited that i DID NOT want to ruin anyones days,or destroy anyones lives. When confronted with my knowlege,my response was as stated 'it doesnt matter,forget about it. Talking about it won't do any good for anyone.' Now if you beg me and addimantly tell me its okay,you just want to know what the deal is. Don't expect me to feel any remorse when the smallest incriment of knowlege upsets you. Im upset too,i have every right to be,and i cannot concern myself with other peoples fucked up perspectives. For the record,i never said anything terrible. I didnt say anyone was an asshole and i didnt say anyone broke up with anyone for any reason,or that fucking of anyone was accuring. Although the statments made to me,made it pretty clear where the intentions are. I meerly stated that one person is spending an awful lot of time with another person. No details were disscussed and no proof was informed. So you girls who have this high level of THINKING you know whats going on,need to shut the fuck up. Cause really,you're all just a fucked up mess of intrusion and insanity.
In the future i will conduct myself how ever i see fit. If thats spitting in your face,then so be it. Im not going to be around here very much longer as it is. And construe that as much as you want into anything you want. Im misserable,im happy,im sad,im disscontent,im stagnant,im a waste of human flesh. Ill give you a million reasons to hate me,just pick one.
Its also very trivial to disscuss these things in such a forum. When phone calls and gatherings are more neccissary then typing.
I will now and forever belive that words are bullshit,and no one ever means what they say.
So in closing. I will grow up,and i will move on,and i will get over the unexplanable bullshit that IVE been put through these last couple of weeks. I would only hope you do the same. And please remeber i have no hate for anyone. And i don't feel like tossing words around that no one cares about. I hope everyone has a very lovely and chilly next couple of days. I know the assylum won't help. But its off to get help.
good day-
In the case of the livejournal stalker who can't form verbal communications without going into a rage of bullshit. I will say this. You need to realise that YOU upset me,and made me misserable for a moment. I know exactly how to get over it,and will continue to do so. But just know,before you had any prior knowlege to my feelings,you didnt say one god damn thing to me about how you felt about me. In wich now you state that you've felt this for a significant amount of time. Instead you continued to hang out with me on a daily basis,wich you've said was a mistake. But you still conciously did it. After the fact that emotions existed,YOU couldnt handle them. So you went on a tyrant spree of trying to break me in two. You succeeded and i feel like such a fool for letting any such person destroy my feelings. I have every right to feel the way i do,and think the way i do. And for anyone such as yourself to disscredit them is very fucked up and unintelligable.
Now in the case of the widespread drama ive received for NOT wanting to give information. I belive i sited that i DID NOT want to ruin anyones days,or destroy anyones lives. When confronted with my knowlege,my response was as stated 'it doesnt matter,forget about it. Talking about it won't do any good for anyone.' Now if you beg me and addimantly tell me its okay,you just want to know what the deal is. Don't expect me to feel any remorse when the smallest incriment of knowlege upsets you. Im upset too,i have every right to be,and i cannot concern myself with other peoples fucked up perspectives. For the record,i never said anything terrible. I didnt say anyone was an asshole and i didnt say anyone broke up with anyone for any reason,or that fucking of anyone was accuring. Although the statments made to me,made it pretty clear where the intentions are. I meerly stated that one person is spending an awful lot of time with another person. No details were disscussed and no proof was informed. So you girls who have this high level of THINKING you know whats going on,need to shut the fuck up. Cause really,you're all just a fucked up mess of intrusion and insanity.
In the future i will conduct myself how ever i see fit. If thats spitting in your face,then so be it. Im not going to be around here very much longer as it is. And construe that as much as you want into anything you want. Im misserable,im happy,im sad,im disscontent,im stagnant,im a waste of human flesh. Ill give you a million reasons to hate me,just pick one.
Its also very trivial to disscuss these things in such a forum. When phone calls and gatherings are more neccissary then typing.
I will now and forever belive that words are bullshit,and no one ever means what they say.
So in closing. I will grow up,and i will move on,and i will get over the unexplanable bullshit that IVE been put through these last couple of weeks. I would only hope you do the same. And please remeber i have no hate for anyone. And i don't feel like tossing words around that no one cares about. I hope everyone has a very lovely and chilly next couple of days. I know the assylum won't help. But its off to get help.
good day-