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ok because it's the last day of school, and i have time:
a few memorable events:
.reconnecting with kelly morris. she saved me this year. i was hibernating or something. i owe her my very breath. i know people say this alot, but i can't see it meaning half as much as i mean it when i say i do not not not know what i would ever do without her
.septemeber dashboard with alyssa. it was her first concert. and dashboards kinda lame to me now, but it was a really good time...and hands down with mike, i dont think im gonna forget that ever.
.one whole beautiful year. with one whole beautiful person.
.taking back sunday, first time i think i ever realized lex was fucking hillarious. and saves the day was awesome.
.halloween at andrews. I swam in the res. talked to john. had a good night for the first time in a long time. went home not wanting to leave.
.overpass with kelly. when i learned not to be so self involved, and that sometimes it's ok to need people and share how you feel.
.thanksgiving at mike's. lion king.
.making a print in photo.
. camping out on kelly's floor with kel lex and erin.
. frozen lake nights, which is why to this day the only way i know how to get ot jills house from kelly's is to cross the lake. kind of impossible in 80 degree weather. dana sat bareassed on the ice.
.getting to know alyssa bergeron better before she left us. haha haunted base?
.reconnecting with mark. I've come to realize i'll probably always be friends with him. until i get very old and wrinkly. and we can't make fun of each other anymore because our tongues are paralyzed.
.lawn tacos with some kids i love.
.becoming friendly with dana, then later becoming friends with her.
. seeing elijah at the meeting, then him explainging why he didnt make it/couldn't afford to come with me, and my broken heart only starting to heal when he makes an effort to see me more.
.hardcore kids ruin everything.
.belmont show. five seconds ago. being proud.
.wuthering heights.
.meeting shannon under better conditions- and becoming friends with her. haha i thought she was so pretty when i first met her. still do, only it makes me happy not mad.
.lori and being scared.
.getting hideously sick in february.
.letting my hair grow way too long before i send a picture to my cousin. she told me to get a haircut quick or she'd never speak to me again. raggamuffin.
.'im too tired to hang out' 'i'm sorry i lied.' -----
the E ffort is too M uch for Y ou to bear
.mr. buse; 'yea i hope to be on drivethru someday' ok, right.
.meet your meat.
.thinking lex hated me-and now being friends with her.
.thinking jill hated me-and now being friends with her
.oh yeah, people to people. emmas a nice girl. cant wait for europe can't wait for europe.
.hearing the name emily come out of mikes mouth.
.that asshole at bright eyes. holding dananana. fucking still makes me angry-how ironic is it that the song playing was waste of paint? because if anyone is a waste of anything-matter even, it was that guy. fucking sweatband? what fuck.
.riding my bike down a hill. and making it alive.
.midnight or later walks with mark.
.missing him. missing him missing him like only as crazy crazy person could.
.whats my name.
.mike breaking my bracelet. its still in his room. i hope he never moves it. love.
.gunshot behind my house.
.16 and happily torn.
.my dad and that waitress. that slut. the bastard. those people.
.letting go is so hard to do. but it happens that i had to and i'm happy i did-because from here most of the shit i was dwelling on looks pretty fucked up from this view.
.hurting papito. microwaves and pace makers do NOT mix.
.little kids can't sing.
.rabid cats with jill.
.'studying' with kelly, really just rocking out to Airports.
.kelly=cracka=whiteperson=kelly
.drama at hanover. goodness at hanover.
.mike and mark getting better. relief.
.avril lavigne in lex's car-leaves on lex's car. hahaha.
.sharing a locker with the following people;
lori (who was threatening to murder me by the end of it)
mike (who i would have murdered by the end of it had i not moved)
kelly (who never gave me the combo so i never had my materials for class)
.loving all three of those people for putting up with me at all.
.switching lunch tables. wondering later why i ever stayed where i did for so long.
.markisthefunniestpersonivevermet...ohmygodhislegsarenttouchingheywaitneitherareyours
.hey i have that cd, i know exactly what you're talking about. great ill never listen to it again.
.being late for photo every day.
.realizing the girl next to me in math hated me and not caring at all.
.we always try to catch butterflies'yeah they are pretty hard to get' not if you lure them with something they want. like what 'lady butterflies' you're so lame its painful.
.talking to andrew in english. squirrel wars.
.skiing with bob and darren.
.november, october what? mike don't forget, im going to drive you to where the sky ends.
.child support dinners.
.day of finals jimmy hussey comes in to history and turns to andrew 'hey can you tell me what we learned 3rd and 4th term' hahahahahaha i laughed so hard. whether or not it was right for ME to.
.creepo 9th grade girls.
.alyssa moving.
.alyssa calling.
.feeling guilty.
.yesterday and realizing.
.packing.
.dad says we might be moving. i'm getting a job to help out. i hope it does. i want to stay. he couldn't refinance. thats life. the bank owns us, owns my life all 16 years of it.
.ending this entry with and I love you. To anyone i mentioned above. and alot of other people i didn't mention.
a few memorable events:
.reconnecting with kelly morris. she saved me this year. i was hibernating or something. i owe her my very breath. i know people say this alot, but i can't see it meaning half as much as i mean it when i say i do not not not know what i would ever do without her
.septemeber dashboard with alyssa. it was her first concert. and dashboards kinda lame to me now, but it was a really good time...and hands down with mike, i dont think im gonna forget that ever.
.one whole beautiful year. with one whole beautiful person.
.taking back sunday, first time i think i ever realized lex was fucking hillarious. and saves the day was awesome.
.halloween at andrews. I swam in the res. talked to john. had a good night for the first time in a long time. went home not wanting to leave.
.overpass with kelly. when i learned not to be so self involved, and that sometimes it's ok to need people and share how you feel.
.thanksgiving at mike's. lion king.
.making a print in photo.
. camping out on kelly's floor with kel lex and erin.
. frozen lake nights, which is why to this day the only way i know how to get ot jills house from kelly's is to cross the lake. kind of impossible in 80 degree weather. dana sat bareassed on the ice.
.getting to know alyssa bergeron better before she left us. haha haunted base?
.reconnecting with mark. I've come to realize i'll probably always be friends with him. until i get very old and wrinkly. and we can't make fun of each other anymore because our tongues are paralyzed.
.lawn tacos with some kids i love.
.becoming friendly with dana, then later becoming friends with her.
. seeing elijah at the meeting, then him explainging why he didnt make it/couldn't afford to come with me, and my broken heart only starting to heal when he makes an effort to see me more.
.hardcore kids ruin everything.
.belmont show. five seconds ago. being proud.
.wuthering heights.
.meeting shannon under better conditions- and becoming friends with her. haha i thought she was so pretty when i first met her. still do, only it makes me happy not mad.
.lori and being scared.
.getting hideously sick in february.
.letting my hair grow way too long before i send a picture to my cousin. she told me to get a haircut quick or she'd never speak to me again. raggamuffin.
.'im too tired to hang out' 'i'm sorry i lied.' -----
the E ffort is too M uch for Y ou to bear
.mr. buse; 'yea i hope to be on drivethru someday' ok, right.
.meet your meat.
.thinking lex hated me-and now being friends with her.
.thinking jill hated me-and now being friends with her
.oh yeah, people to people. emmas a nice girl. cant wait for europe can't wait for europe.
.hearing the name emily come out of mikes mouth.
.that asshole at bright eyes. holding dananana. fucking still makes me angry-how ironic is it that the song playing was waste of paint? because if anyone is a waste of anything-matter even, it was that guy. fucking sweatband? what fuck.
.riding my bike down a hill. and making it alive.
.midnight or later walks with mark.
.missing him. missing him missing him like only as crazy crazy person could.
.whats my name.
.mike breaking my bracelet. its still in his room. i hope he never moves it. love.
.gunshot behind my house.
.16 and happily torn.
.my dad and that waitress. that slut. the bastard. those people.
.letting go is so hard to do. but it happens that i had to and i'm happy i did-because from here most of the shit i was dwelling on looks pretty fucked up from this view.
.hurting papito. microwaves and pace makers do NOT mix.
.little kids can't sing.
.rabid cats with jill.
.'studying' with kelly, really just rocking out to Airports.
.kelly=cracka=whiteperson=kelly
.drama at hanover. goodness at hanover.
.mike and mark getting better. relief.
.avril lavigne in lex's car-leaves on lex's car. hahaha.
.sharing a locker with the following people;
lori (who was threatening to murder me by the end of it)
mike (who i would have murdered by the end of it had i not moved)
kelly (who never gave me the combo so i never had my materials for class)
.loving all three of those people for putting up with me at all.
.switching lunch tables. wondering later why i ever stayed where i did for so long.
.markisthefunniestpersonivevermet...ohmygodhislegsarenttouchingheywaitneitherareyours
.hey i have that cd, i know exactly what you're talking about. great ill never listen to it again.
.being late for photo every day.
.realizing the girl next to me in math hated me and not caring at all.
.we always try to catch butterflies'yeah they are pretty hard to get' not if you lure them with something they want. like what 'lady butterflies' you're so lame its painful.
.talking to andrew in english. squirrel wars.
.skiing with bob and darren.
.november, october what? mike don't forget, im going to drive you to where the sky ends.
.child support dinners.
.day of finals jimmy hussey comes in to history and turns to andrew 'hey can you tell me what we learned 3rd and 4th term' hahahahahaha i laughed so hard. whether or not it was right for ME to.
.creepo 9th grade girls.
.alyssa moving.
.alyssa calling.
.feeling guilty.
.yesterday and realizing.
.packing.
.dad says we might be moving. i'm getting a job to help out. i hope it does. i want to stay. he couldn't refinance. thats life. the bank owns us, owns my life all 16 years of it.
.ending this entry with and I love you. To anyone i mentioned above. and alot of other people i didn't mention.