*sigh*

[russian_boi]

We said we'd walk together, baby, come what may
That come the twilight, should we lose our way
If as we were walking, a hand should slip free
I'll wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me

We swore we'd travel together, darlin', side by side
We'd help each other stay in stride
But each lover's steps fall so differently
So I'll wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me

Everyone dreams of a love lasting and true
But you and I know what this world can do
So let´s make our steps clear that the other may see
And I´ll wait for you
Should I fall behind
Wait for me

Now there's a beautiful river in the valley ahead
And there 'neath the oak's bough, soon we will wed
Should we lose each other
In the shadow of the evening trees
I'll wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me
Darlin' I'll wait for you
Should I fall behind
Wait for me
Oh, wait for me

If I should fall behind
Wait for me

Truth is, she'll never be mine. She loves Anat. And I'm partially happy because she loves her. She seems to have found her match. But truth is, I've lost her forever. Nothing matters anymore. She really loves her.

I just wish she hadn't chosen to break my heart before loving her. I lost the way, my right mind, my desire to live, all taken away the a picture of a person I don't even know. All those beautiful words, all those marvelous dreams, and every one of those bright smiles... everything was a lie. Where went my happiness when she dumped me?

I miss Biggie. She used to be good at comforting me.