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Ive been feeling really shitty lately, always tired, always in a blah mood, got some really bad news on friday from england, maybe it has something to do with it, Ive been seeing alot of weird shit lately, and I havent been my normal joking/cocky self....I feel like I dont know whats going on, Im supposed to be in control of everything, but right now I feel like Im losing an easy battle, I wont lay down easy...see the news from england was that a family friend, more like an aunt died on friday when her familys store burnt down, her son alan jr. is who i stayed with when i went back to england in 2001....my family are all hurting right now from the news, she had been battling cancer most of her life....as a result, last night I had the worst nightmare about a fire, it fucking scared the shit out of me....I dont want to talk about this anymore
Eric's moving ina couple of weeks I think...I havent talked too much about it with him, I havent felt like talking much at all to anyone though...
One of the girls I had been talking too, just sent me an IM with a bitchy attitude, fuck her, NEXT! getting a replacement isnt a problem, but right now I really dont give a shit about anything or anyone....I just want my family in England to be strong, I miss them alot right now...
I started to like someone though, shes the only person Ive been able to hold a convo with, somewhat, Ive known her for a few years, but she used to date a friend of mine, and under the gentlemens code, I cant go near that until I talk to him about it...sucks I know, but I believe in respect and honor...
Im out, I need to try and eat...later
Eric's moving ina couple of weeks I think...I havent talked too much about it with him, I havent felt like talking much at all to anyone though...
One of the girls I had been talking too, just sent me an IM with a bitchy attitude, fuck her, NEXT! getting a replacement isnt a problem, but right now I really dont give a shit about anything or anyone....I just want my family in England to be strong, I miss them alot right now...
I started to like someone though, shes the only person Ive been able to hold a convo with, somewhat, Ive known her for a few years, but she used to date a friend of mine, and under the gentlemens code, I cant go near that until I talk to him about it...sucks I know, but I believe in respect and honor...
Im out, I need to try and eat...later