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On the list of things people shouldn't do, but which I do anyway, is having a sort of romance fling thing with a long-time good friend that was/is pretty special to me, which ends two days before I leave the country for possibly years. I mean where were you years ago? I feel like there are a lot of strings tugging out of me right now. Lots of feels. I wanted to say a lot more things to him but didn't in the interest of not being too dramatic. Maybe the feels are all on my end. Everytime I touch someone now I think, is this the last time I will ever feel this way or touch this person? It's confusing as hell.