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1) The good thing about taking a holiday is that you have time to do mundane tasks in twice the amount of time it takes if you were in a hurry. Today is no exception. Went out to get lunch for my grandma again. Today, I settled for sliced fish soup and a slightly spicy otah. Going to take her out for 水饺 and 锅贴 tomorrow at her favourite Chinatown place.
2) The bad thing about taking a holiday is that you have too much time to think and wallow. Can't wait till work starts next week, for two weeks. It isn't helping that the (volunteer) job is probably going to be slow and a little boring.
3) My passions are gone. I really liked playing the classical guitar - so much so that I even applied to music school. Today, I can't even play a quarter of the pieces I had trained and can't even do the scales properly and am too lazy to even take out the footstool for proper positioning. It's all gone, sight reading too.
4) I really liked playing computer games - so much so that I competed and was ranked 6th pan-Asia way back before it became popular and was given "sport" status. There were things I loved doing, set out to learn and did well in. But something happened since University began and instead of stepping up I stepped down and chased dreams which were not mine.
4) I still chase those imposed dreams. Because it's the rational thing to do. Sometimes, being rational kinda sucks, doesn't it?
5) End of Term party later at China Club tonight. Don't feel like going and being social. Sure, friends will be there and all. But it's a little tiresome to have to mingle.
6) I attribute my current despondency on a sudden surge in my general malaise.
2) The bad thing about taking a holiday is that you have too much time to think and wallow. Can't wait till work starts next week, for two weeks. It isn't helping that the (volunteer) job is probably going to be slow and a little boring.
3) My passions are gone. I really liked playing the classical guitar - so much so that I even applied to music school. Today, I can't even play a quarter of the pieces I had trained and can't even do the scales properly and am too lazy to even take out the footstool for proper positioning. It's all gone, sight reading too.
4) I really liked playing computer games - so much so that I competed and was ranked 6th pan-Asia way back before it became popular and was given "sport" status. There were things I loved doing, set out to learn and did well in. But something happened since University began and instead of stepping up I stepped down and chased dreams which were not mine.
4) I still chase those imposed dreams. Because it's the rational thing to do. Sometimes, being rational kinda sucks, doesn't it?
5) End of Term party later at China Club tonight. Don't feel like going and being social. Sure, friends will be there and all. But it's a little tiresome to have to mingle.
6) I attribute my current despondency on a sudden surge in my general malaise.