Life (part 1 of .....)
Today is day four of a seven day vacation. My first day was preparing myself to come house sit at my parents. I am housesitting until Sunday night. That means four nights of no sleep. There's really nothing much for me to do since I'm hear to housesit, not hang out with people. So I've been on Facebook and Youtube. I'm trying to keep up to date with friends who aren't on and drama's that I should have watched a long time ago.
It was while I was on Facebook that I came across a post that really hit me in the heart.
"One day, you'll wake up and there won't be any more time for you to do the things you've always wanted."
There's so many things I want to do.
Travel.
Meet a band.
Watch dramas.
Learn Japanese and Korean fluently.
Get married.
Make babies.
Take a walk.
Go to the beach.
Exercise.
Eat healthy.
Lose weight.
Speak to Kim Sunggyu and Nishikido Ryo.
But right now, what I need to do the most is, figure out where I'm going in life.
Right now I'm living with two other people. Two people who are in love and happy. The female tends to hang out with people a lot and she has trouble telling people no. The other really doesn't like to be around people. He and I are kindred spirits. Day off = Computer. I want to exercise, but at the same time I don't. I want to eat healthy, but I love carbs too much. I want to get my finances in order but I just want to buy things I want. I'm about to finally finish paying off one debt only to have to start working on another. My life was about to be set...and then I just went and screwed it up.
And right now? I hate that I'm here at my parents. I wish my vacation could have been spent at MY place with MY cat doing the same thing I'm doing now, but in MY bed.
My mind is a jumbled mess right now but I had to get that out there. I needed to vent. So right now.... that's it.