Roar
WHY DO I BOTHER!?
What’s the point of talking at all to anyone? All I ever get online or otherwise is curt little short answers to any questions I ask. I keep getting Apathy, well you know what I’m not that interesting I’m sorry, though you know I miss people too and would like to hear what they have to say. That or I just want people to listen so perhaps having the knowledge I can help someone, but of course I can’t. You know I’m trying to help and then I just make things worse! You know I make peace with one and basically, it’s like so what, to her, so you know what, so be it. With another its like, nope I’m busy now, don’t think anyone can help me so don’t bother. Argh its so fracking frustrating, WHAT’S THE POINT ANYMORE! I’m no one’s friend and apparently no one else is my friend! Yeah that’s right, if I was they might realize I’m not perfect and I can’t be interesting I can’t say the right thing…BUT I WILL BE THERE and all I ask is you just TRY to communicate to me. Though apparently after writing this all I’m going to do is just piss more people off again like I always do. I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M DOING WRONG! No one will tell me, so I’ll I am is a fucking moron. I hate this, I keep flipping out and I can’t stop thinking like this, I just want to know if something is wrong. I just want to know what I’m doing wrong…sigh.
What’s the point of talking at all to anyone? All I ever get online or otherwise is curt little short answers to any questions I ask. I keep getting Apathy, well you know what I’m not that interesting I’m sorry, though you know I miss people too and would like to hear what they have to say. That or I just want people to listen so perhaps having the knowledge I can help someone, but of course I can’t. You know I’m trying to help and then I just make things worse! You know I make peace with one and basically, it’s like so what, to her, so you know what, so be it. With another its like, nope I’m busy now, don’t think anyone can help me so don’t bother. Argh its so fracking frustrating, WHAT’S THE POINT ANYMORE! I’m no one’s friend and apparently no one else is my friend! Yeah that’s right, if I was they might realize I’m not perfect and I can’t be interesting I can’t say the right thing…BUT I WILL BE THERE and all I ask is you just TRY to communicate to me. Though apparently after writing this all I’m going to do is just piss more people off again like I always do. I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M DOING WRONG! No one will tell me, so I’ll I am is a fucking moron. I hate this, I keep flipping out and I can’t stop thinking like this, I just want to know if something is wrong. I just want to know what I’m doing wrong…sigh.