procrastanting, as usual
so within the past 2 weeks i have had 3 dreams where i was pregnant. two of the three were really vivid and felt real- like, my stomach felt different and everything. i wasnt super prego in any of them, like i wasnt showing a lot or anything (in one of them i was actually upset about it b/c i love super prego women, i think its really cute and wanted to look like that). in the one i had last night, i was home at the doctors again to get more blood work done to see why i was still tired and was getting sick all the time even though i stopped eating carbs and sugars and stopped drinking. the docs told me i was pregnant, and somehow it turned out to be scott's (very strange since i havent slept w/ him since august... but i guess that's what makes it a dream). so i got to his house to tell him and he invites me out or something and offers to buy me a drink and when i refuse he's like "why not? you pregnant or something?" and i just gave him a look and he's like "oh holy shit". then he asks whose it is and i tell him his, expecting him to get really upset and shit, but he actually got really excited. it was very strange! he picked me up and spun me around and was just really excited about it. the weirdest part about that is that we've had conversations before about how stupid we think everyone we know are for getting knocked up so young. btu apparently that doesnt pertain to us...
anyway, just thought i'd share that, i thought it was really, really strange. but all these dreams are making me afraid to go too far w/ dave. i know thats kind of irrational, but the women in my family do have a tendency to be super fertile, so i'm going to maybe delay that next step for a little bit, at least until my dreams arent so obsessed w/ getting me knocked up.
oh yes, one more thing. i have decided that i need to stick to the low carb, sugar, cal/high protein, fiber diet as much as possible b/c otherwise i'm going to develope diabetes. so this means no more sweets or junk food and for now very, very little drinking which will probably eventually become no drinking b/c that's probably the worst thing i could be doing. so sadly, i think my champion drinking days are behind me :( (no worries sarah, i think the party i'm throwing for you will be my last night of glory, so you wont miss that)
anyway, just thought i'd share that, i thought it was really, really strange. but all these dreams are making me afraid to go too far w/ dave. i know thats kind of irrational, but the women in my family do have a tendency to be super fertile, so i'm going to maybe delay that next step for a little bit, at least until my dreams arent so obsessed w/ getting me knocked up.
oh yes, one more thing. i have decided that i need to stick to the low carb, sugar, cal/high protein, fiber diet as much as possible b/c otherwise i'm going to develope diabetes. so this means no more sweets or junk food and for now very, very little drinking which will probably eventually become no drinking b/c that's probably the worst thing i could be doing. so sadly, i think my champion drinking days are behind me :( (no worries sarah, i think the party i'm throwing for you will be my last night of glory, so you wont miss that)