i think i'm an insomniac again. this kinda sucks
so i've been tired since i got to school, and i was thinking that maybe i was sick w/ mono or something like that, but then as i lay awake again tonight (ive been trying to sleep since 10 cuz im so tired) i decided that i think its cuz my bed is so uncomfortable that i just sit awake and think. i cant get comfy so i just think and my brain doesnt shut off. i decided im going to get myself a featherbed this weekend and see if that helps any.
in other news, as many of you know, scott invited me to go visit him in sc so i am going to do that the first weekend of november!! i am very excited, and that probably adds to the lack of sleep thing, too. we are going to go to a football game which he is really excited to take me to, and if we have time we're going skydiving, something else he is really excited about. he goes all the time but i never have so i really want to. like i said i am very excited about this, but i am also kind of confused.
i'm not sure what this makes us now, if anything. i dont know if he wants to do the long-distance thing, im dont know if I want to do the long-distance thing... i guess i'll just wait till nov. and see then, but thats a long time away! i miss him a lot, i feel like its been forever since i've seen him, but i dont want to be as attached as i feel now because after this semester, even if we decide to extend this relationship, he's either going to africa or california and i wont see him for years. is there really a point in trying? at this point i cant help my emotions; earlier on i could have but leave it to me to decide to let the one i cant have get in. im stupid like that. oh well, i guess we'll see what happens that weekend.
i think im gunna go try to sleep again i suppose. maybe i'll get food first; eating usually makes me sleepy so that might help. good night all
in other news, as many of you know, scott invited me to go visit him in sc so i am going to do that the first weekend of november!! i am very excited, and that probably adds to the lack of sleep thing, too. we are going to go to a football game which he is really excited to take me to, and if we have time we're going skydiving, something else he is really excited about. he goes all the time but i never have so i really want to. like i said i am very excited about this, but i am also kind of confused.
i'm not sure what this makes us now, if anything. i dont know if he wants to do the long-distance thing, im dont know if I want to do the long-distance thing... i guess i'll just wait till nov. and see then, but thats a long time away! i miss him a lot, i feel like its been forever since i've seen him, but i dont want to be as attached as i feel now because after this semester, even if we decide to extend this relationship, he's either going to africa or california and i wont see him for years. is there really a point in trying? at this point i cant help my emotions; earlier on i could have but leave it to me to decide to let the one i cant have get in. im stupid like that. oh well, i guess we'll see what happens that weekend.
i think im gunna go try to sleep again i suppose. maybe i'll get food first; eating usually makes me sleepy so that might help. good night all