Jul 22, 2006 03:18
So, i'm depressed again, left here alone to drink my problems away all because of you. Thank you for ruining my life because it's what you're best at. Thank you for not dealing with the guilt i'm giving you for free since you're all out of cash anyway and have to spend it with time to make me feel like complete shit. Thank you for taking away the lovely people I have met to believe the worsened words about me. Thank you for the prank calls, unbuilt walls, and many falls.
How can you sit there and blame everything on me when you have ended it anyway? Don't you understand you were my everything and that I miss it? Don't you understand why I can't keep talking about the past and have to argue with you to get over you? I have to pretend you don't exist so I don't have to fall in love with you all over again.
This is it, my confession. You're right, i'm negative...but on the positive side i'm still living....and somehow breathing...and no i'm not a whore. I've told you many times over and over and apoligizing for the past little white lies that don't even matter anymore Why bother defending myself when you are the only one allowd to talk anyway?
If you would just leave me alone so I could move on and keep pretending I never met you I could be happy. I could sit here and focus on the new things that take part in my new life everyday. You know i'm still not over you, otherwise none of this would matter anymore.
Just please leave me alone forever and maybe someday when i've finally moved on I can talk to you without you sitting here making me apoligize pathetically like a fucking broken record player that plays only the saddest songs anyone has ever heard. Just stop with everything. Even though you are my muse among any other inspirations..i'd call you the brick wall of any bright day i'll ever have.
You call me immature and you sit there... first breaking my heart into a million peices and still continue with me feeling like complete shit. How can you do this? I have never deserved this under any circumstance. You don't want to be the cause of my depression yet you are the deep inner core in this present day.
Funny how you could make me completely happy then empty the next..indian giver...
Nothing of your doing is a favor at all. And I deffinetly don't deserve to give you any. Just leave me the fuck alone so my glass can be half full while your's is completly empty.
fuck.