Mar 05, 2006 02:30
I played the first real gig of my life tonight. It is now one of the best nights of my life. I wanted to party like hell afterwards, but it wouldn't have worked out, so I'm here at home instead. But that's alright, I'm still damm happy, and it was also my moms birthday today.
None of you Drew kids came, shame on you. Except for Davey, Nick, and Davey's friend that goes to Tamiscal... I forget his name. But he's a sick litte kid. Oh and three freshmen girls who are hella tight. All I have to say is that honestly you missed out. It was actually good. I hope the next gig will be even better, but honestly it was good.
Basically we went up, and we're starting into Good Times Bad Times by Zeppelin, when it hits me: You're SINGING in front of a crowd of people at a club! You're live! This is actually happening! That's when I thought the nervousness would hit me, but it didn't. We played through our whole set and yeah, there were a few little things here and there, but we covered it damm well.
I had no fear. I wouldn't be able to type that and not delete it right afterwards if it wasn't really true. Somehow, I was really able to do it and I never got nervous at all the entire night. That feels pretty fucking good.
I love singing rock n' roll music, because it brings out my alter-ego, which is pretty much the cool rockin' dude I always want to be. I always could act like I was some fuckin' rock star at school and spike my hair (Like, a fuckin' lot more than I normally do..), but what'd be the point? Well, I am a HELL of a lot more confident when I'm performing... so I guess there's that. But it'd be unnescesary. If I could carry the confidence I have performing into my daily life, then.. well I'd be fucking SET for life! I'd be stoked.
Life is fucking GREAT performing. But the weird thing is, it's only when I'm singing, comparied to drums, guitar, bass, or piano, that I truly feel GREAT. Singing is one the most pleasing, expressful, fun, and confidence-boosting activities in the world. I'm not afraid to say I love it. And I'm not THAT bad anymore. I really used to be terrible, but I'm much better now. Some people probably read this and think it's really conceided, but the truth is I'm just confident about it and I'm not afraid to say it the way it is for me. I mean, it's all simply my opinion. If I didn't think I had what it took, I wouldn't be able to do it. Think of it this way.
Q: Do you have what it takes?
A: Not if you have to ask!
Live by that, and life will rock. Really! It might sound conceided at first, but think about it.