Nov 11, 2003 17:16
my sister just left.
words can't express how i'm feeling right now.
her leaving was one of the most emotional moments my family has ever experienced.
we got in a circle, held hands, and said an "our father" together.
mid prayer, my sister started quietly crying.
i have rarely in my entire life seen my sister cry. i couldn't help but burst into tears.
and we all just held each other in a circle, quietly crying. and then my parents and her got in the car with me and my brother looking out the window waving goodbye.
now that she's gone the tears won't stop.
i can't begin to imagine the emotions my sister's feeling. i wish i could take them all from her so she wouldn't have that burden. i hope she comes home safely. i hope she doesn't have to see too much suffering. i hope she'll have a purpose in going.
i guess all i can do now though is pray. its just so hard to believe this is happening.
but now that she's gone the reality is sinking in.
how is that my sister's going to war?all i can picture is my sister when we were younger. how important she was to me, how i idolized her and yearned for her affection. she was my role model, she was what i wished i could be. when did we grow up? when did she become an adult old enough to fight in wars? she's gotten so beautiful as we've grown up. i couldn't help but notice it today. i love her. and its just so hard to say goodbye.
i love you carla, i love you so much you have no idea. i'll think of you every day, and i'll miss you beyond belief. good luck and i'll see you in a few months.
- your baby sister