HELL is unchanging torture
Im glad NOTHING changed while i was gone life is still hell here. everywhere i go i fell i dont belong and HELL is home. Well yeah im home now if u want to do ne thing get me outa this house please. hayley got grounded which sucks so as soon as i got home i was planning on going over to her house but couldnt do that so just drove around lost. saw matt he just got back too. traded cds cool i guess i can hide inside my head for a while while listening to lyrics ive never heard. but i think that suicide would b an easier way out. you say its for cowards? Well im scared now im a fucking coward now what?
shit im too weak to pull the trigger. killed a crap load of fucking rodents the last 3 days shot almost a thousand rounds of ammo. well it was fun to kill so much. wish i coulda been out in one of those fields popping my head up to get a bullet traveling 4000 feet per second entering my body and shreding while the force blows all apart my insides. hmm i turn 18 friday sounds like i should commit suicide and join the marines. but i dont have the balls for it im weak. need to find a release. wish i could c Hayley FUCK life sucks the one good thing is taken away fuck this fuck that somebody take me outa here get my mind off my life. please help. this is a time when if i could muster the will id run away ...yes there are things going on u wont know aboutr and ask y am i like this well if u dont know i probably dont trust u or am ambarasted so fuck me... right ok
shit im too weak to pull the trigger. killed a crap load of fucking rodents the last 3 days shot almost a thousand rounds of ammo. well it was fun to kill so much. wish i coulda been out in one of those fields popping my head up to get a bullet traveling 4000 feet per second entering my body and shreding while the force blows all apart my insides. hmm i turn 18 friday sounds like i should commit suicide and join the marines. but i dont have the balls for it im weak. need to find a release. wish i could c Hayley FUCK life sucks the one good thing is taken away fuck this fuck that somebody take me outa here get my mind off my life. please help. this is a time when if i could muster the will id run away ...yes there are things going on u wont know aboutr and ask y am i like this well if u dont know i probably dont trust u or am ambarasted so fuck me... right ok