Pro- life numbness
hey everyone well i know i haven't been on in a while but i was busy being kiddneaped by aliens. you know how that goes first you have to be abducted and then they give you the tour of the nice space ship - and man was that a NICE ship the lounge? beautiful! and my room : spectacular! (even with all the funny monoters!)
lol for the last month or so i've been busy with school and gettting ready for the pro-life trip. yes thats right i am freashly returned from a four day trip to DC for the pro life march. i got off the bus this morrning at 7am. luckly i can sleep on any moving veical so i'm not wiped out or anything.
the trip was good i roomed with my frond Xai and the only creepy stoggy adult on the trip was the vice principal and she turned out to be alot less intence on the trip. and i discovered that a few (not all) of the people i traditionaly avoided are actualy preaty cool. we aren't gonna be boosom buddies or anything but if i ever have the need to smack someone they won't have to worry. lol.
there was a down side - there always is it seems. each night we had a group discusion and every one had beautiful things to conturibute about what moved them. Ms. mcAuliffe quoted scripture, Fudge quoted song lyrics, Mr. tomsey talked about how he was proud of all his students and our respect, mary cryed. every one had somehting beautful to contribut but i stayed silent. on sunday they made every one say something and all i could come up with was snow.
i felt nothing at the mermorials i was numb. i saw what they ware and the truth they comunicated and i was numb. numb numb numb numb. period end of story.
i understasnd why i can't talk to people : a lack of trust and social training. and i can understand what they feel - sometimes i understand so well i feel it myself but its their emotions not mine. what i don't understad- what i can't seem to grasp is why i feel nothing when others feel so strongly.
ah well i suppose that somethings aren't ment to be understood. after all human wisdom only understands so much.
lol for the last month or so i've been busy with school and gettting ready for the pro-life trip. yes thats right i am freashly returned from a four day trip to DC for the pro life march. i got off the bus this morrning at 7am. luckly i can sleep on any moving veical so i'm not wiped out or anything.
the trip was good i roomed with my frond Xai and the only creepy stoggy adult on the trip was the vice principal and she turned out to be alot less intence on the trip. and i discovered that a few (not all) of the people i traditionaly avoided are actualy preaty cool. we aren't gonna be boosom buddies or anything but if i ever have the need to smack someone they won't have to worry. lol.
there was a down side - there always is it seems. each night we had a group discusion and every one had beautiful things to conturibute about what moved them. Ms. mcAuliffe quoted scripture, Fudge quoted song lyrics, Mr. tomsey talked about how he was proud of all his students and our respect, mary cryed. every one had somehting beautful to contribut but i stayed silent. on sunday they made every one say something and all i could come up with was snow.
i felt nothing at the mermorials i was numb. i saw what they ware and the truth they comunicated and i was numb. numb numb numb numb. period end of story.
i understasnd why i can't talk to people : a lack of trust and social training. and i can understand what they feel - sometimes i understand so well i feel it myself but its their emotions not mine. what i don't understad- what i can't seem to grasp is why i feel nothing when others feel so strongly.
ah well i suppose that somethings aren't ment to be understood. after all human wisdom only understands so much.