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I'm fading, opaque and transparent.... my existence used to matter to so many, there were so many lives I've touched, and now.... if I didn't make an attempt to contact people, nobody would bother to talk to or think of me. I guess I'm becoming an "old person I used to know" memory to everyone.... the same way many people are to me. Blah. I'm a ghost.
ha speaking of that, I almost died this weekend.... it really freaked me out.... big car breakdown near death accident in North Carolina.... but... I just shook it off immediately after.... and I guess it's starting to get to me now.... like.... I feel like I'm dead already all the time... and that's why almost dieing doesn't even bother me....
but that thought bothers me. a lot
ha speaking of that, I almost died this weekend.... it really freaked me out.... big car breakdown near death accident in North Carolina.... but... I just shook it off immediately after.... and I guess it's starting to get to me now.... like.... I feel like I'm dead already all the time... and that's why almost dieing doesn't even bother me....
but that thought bothers me. a lot