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[runningonablank]

Sometimes I sit around and wonder WHAT THE FUCK am i doing with myself. Seriously, all i want to do is play and make beautiful music. but its so hard to do that. why can't i just play music all day and not worry about a god damn thing. i'm all alone and i have absolutely nothing. all i want to do is play my violin and piano...is that really so much to ask?! al, i fucking wish i hadnt screwed up, but i have. i lost everything. this'll be the last time i write in this thing i guess, its completely all yours my friend.
fuck
fuck
fuck
maybe ill just show up in portland sometime soon...
just to say hi to an old friend.
ive got nothing holding me back here anymore.
all i wanted was to just make music.
-Michelle Jade-
Peace agapae.