I've become so numb, I can't feel you there...
Today was a difficult day, I was just trying to make it through the day with out breaking down again. But it didn't work. Dan didn't know what to do when I went to him so worked up, it was bad. Things are so screwed up, it's not even funny. I feel like just giving up, but I know I can't, it's just so hard sometimes, and it's all too much to take. I don't really have anything else to say, and I'm not getting into detail about this shit.
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change
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