Welcome...and first bitching
First of all I would like to welcome you all to the journal that I told myself I would never have! And now for the real purpose of this journal...to let it all out!
Do you ever feel as if people, especially friends, are just using you? You know the type...you'd do anything for them yet it seems as if nothing is ever right or enough. No matter how much you try to make them happy, there is always something to bitch and complain about, and you can always forget about getting your way because as soon as you stand up for yourself and what you want, you get bitched at by the other person. They get pissed at you, and in the end you give up just to avoid the rediculous conflict. I think the worst part of it all is that you feel unappreciated and completely and utterly unloved, because no words of appreciation ever flow from the other party's lips. And even though the relationship is not a physical/dating kind of relationship, sometimes the words "Thank You" and "I Love You" need to be uttered to keep a relationship going, though it is only a "strong" friendship. I mean, am I alone in feeling this way? Am I completely insane? Is it wrong for me to sometimes desire to just throw in the towel and say "FUCK YOU!?"
Do you ever feel as if people, especially friends, are just using you? You know the type...you'd do anything for them yet it seems as if nothing is ever right or enough. No matter how much you try to make them happy, there is always something to bitch and complain about, and you can always forget about getting your way because as soon as you stand up for yourself and what you want, you get bitched at by the other person. They get pissed at you, and in the end you give up just to avoid the rediculous conflict. I think the worst part of it all is that you feel unappreciated and completely and utterly unloved, because no words of appreciation ever flow from the other party's lips. And even though the relationship is not a physical/dating kind of relationship, sometimes the words "Thank You" and "I Love You" need to be uttered to keep a relationship going, though it is only a "strong" friendship. I mean, am I alone in feeling this way? Am I completely insane? Is it wrong for me to sometimes desire to just throw in the towel and say "FUCK YOU!?"