this is not good...
i have a gut feeling about this weekend that something bad's goin to happen with PB...
i dont know if i can quite deal with him anymore...we are becoming 2 completely different ppl with different goals in mind...
for example...i think he goes out to drink almost every night of the week for the past 2 weeks AT LEAST...then there's the smoking which i dont think he'll ever quit...
lately he's been short with me on the phone ~ at least for the past week to 2 weeks so it makes me feel like i dont matter to him b/c he's always in a hurry to get off the phone with me...i dunno maybe he's just too busy with his social life to bother to take time out for a phone call to me...either way it bothers me...
i'm just beginning to wonder, is PB the same PB as he used to be?? maybe its me who's changing since nursing has kinda transformed me into this studious student who cant go out and have fun anymore or as often...maybe i'm just growing up...i mean i'm about to turn 22 in a little over a month...how scary is that?
I've just got a lot to think about for the next couple of days...i guess i'll just have to take things lightly and not expect anything from him this weekend...like being there for me, or being supportive, or anything that includes responsibility this weekend...if anything he'll be the complete opposite and by no means am i going to be able to put up with it for that long...
things are starting to wind down now...
i dont know if i can quite deal with him anymore...we are becoming 2 completely different ppl with different goals in mind...
for example...i think he goes out to drink almost every night of the week for the past 2 weeks AT LEAST...then there's the smoking which i dont think he'll ever quit...
lately he's been short with me on the phone ~ at least for the past week to 2 weeks so it makes me feel like i dont matter to him b/c he's always in a hurry to get off the phone with me...i dunno maybe he's just too busy with his social life to bother to take time out for a phone call to me...either way it bothers me...
i'm just beginning to wonder, is PB the same PB as he used to be?? maybe its me who's changing since nursing has kinda transformed me into this studious student who cant go out and have fun anymore or as often...maybe i'm just growing up...i mean i'm about to turn 22 in a little over a month...how scary is that?
I've just got a lot to think about for the next couple of days...i guess i'll just have to take things lightly and not expect anything from him this weekend...like being there for me, or being supportive, or anything that includes responsibility this weekend...if anything he'll be the complete opposite and by no means am i going to be able to put up with it for that long...
things are starting to wind down now...