48.
Update on my mess.
It's cleaned up. Well, as clean as I can get it for now. *sigh* I swear, I must have done something horrible in a past life for this same problem to constantly turn up like it is. Only this time, it was much harder to fix. Much harder. I'm still not sure how long my solution will last. I think I've done the right thing. It feels like it's the right thing. But who really knows what's right from what's wrong?
And now that I've made a decision, I will be haunted by dreams and nightmares of all the 'what-if's'. Bah. Matters of the heart are way too complicated for me right now. Here I am, trying to get my shit together to go back to school this fall, to get a part time job to help pay for my school, to change the world, and now I've got to sort out Love. Why?
That is the question I want an answer to, oh Universe: Why?
-MC.
It's cleaned up. Well, as clean as I can get it for now. *sigh* I swear, I must have done something horrible in a past life for this same problem to constantly turn up like it is. Only this time, it was much harder to fix. Much harder. I'm still not sure how long my solution will last. I think I've done the right thing. It feels like it's the right thing. But who really knows what's right from what's wrong?
And now that I've made a decision, I will be haunted by dreams and nightmares of all the 'what-if's'. Bah. Matters of the heart are way too complicated for me right now. Here I am, trying to get my shit together to go back to school this fall, to get a part time job to help pay for my school, to change the world, and now I've got to sort out Love. Why?
That is the question I want an answer to, oh Universe: Why?
-MC.