fuck it all to hell...
I dont know where it all went wrong and I never saw it coming.. Nick confused me and made me feel like there may be another chance, but he said today taht he was just trying to make me feel better and he didnt mean it the way he said it. So that was like a dagger to the heart again.. I cant take this my minds ready to snap if it hasnt already. Im more depressed than i have ever been before and everyone tells me to move on cuz hes an asshole, but i just cant bring myself to it. I DONT WANT anyone else is that so hard to see. How can the person who made me the happiest person ever make me the saddiest person in the world at the same time. I have a box of all the stuff ive saved from good times together and its like calling to me from the shelf, but i cant look at it. I just wish it was all back to normal again I know if he really wanted to he could love me but he deosnt want to try. The movies tomorrow with him is gonna kill me. Its the ONE harry potter that is based off of relationships and them liking eachother. I said we're never gonna get to see eachother after tomorrow and he disagreed but when i said its only 2 weeks til exams and then winter vacation he agreed. Instead of saying "well maybe we cna visit eachother during the week" but no thats too much to ask for. He knows i have a ride to uconn to see him whenever and whatever day I want, but he wont say the word. Its not even that he doesnt want a relationship its that he wont TRY to have one. He didnt even give me a fucking birthday present and it shouldnt be a huge ordeal, but he gave me crap for giving him one late.
And he says "he doubts it" when I brought the idea up of him finding another girl, but thats not saying no so it'll prolly happen. If it does i hope she makes him so fucking miserable because he already knows nobody is going to treat him like i did. And he had the nerve to ask me to do stuff for him the weekend before we broke up? Well okay have fun doin things by yourself, afterall you said I was amazing, but obviously not amazing enough to keep you with me..
I'm not going to wait around forever.. So think about it and figure out what you want because if that days comes and your too late you'll miss me when im gone..
And he says "he doubts it" when I brought the idea up of him finding another girl, but thats not saying no so it'll prolly happen. If it does i hope she makes him so fucking miserable because he already knows nobody is going to treat him like i did. And he had the nerve to ask me to do stuff for him the weekend before we broke up? Well okay have fun doin things by yourself, afterall you said I was amazing, but obviously not amazing enough to keep you with me..
I'm not going to wait around forever.. So think about it and figure out what you want because if that days comes and your too late you'll miss me when im gone..