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I had a really good night last night. Went out for like the second time this summer. I honestly don't know why I don't go out (Jay's house doesn't count) more often. I always seem to have a great time. Tonight is Montreal with Lisa and Faith so that should be interesting. Ricky really made me upset last night with something he said, then made me upset with something he did. Sometimes I really hate all males. And then things were okay. I actually think I LET IT GO. Well there's a first for me. Besides Ricky and Gregg are leaving for Iraq in two weeks. That really depresses me and I keep thinking it isn't going to happen. Their best friend who is serving over there just got shot really badly and is in critical condition in Iraq. That is the same unit Gregg is going to and Ricky volunteered for but I guess he is going somewhere different. I just hope the next 18 months go by quickly and safely. Support your troops.
I'm in one of those weird states where I don't know how I feel / don't know what to do about anything. I've been avoiding an akward conversation with Connor. And a conversation with Joe I really don't want to have. I'm going to have to put my foot down at some point, but a large part of me really doesn't want to. I just have these three major situations that need to be dealt with and if/when they are someone will end up hurt, or upset, or unhappy. I mean I guess that is life and it will keep on rollin regardless of what I do. I guess I really just want classes to start again. I need to be busy and have real stuff to do, and that way I'm working towards some kind of goal or something. I need to have grades like I had last semester again. And I'm taking a class at Champlain so maybe I will meet some new people, or at least a new type of person because I'm still convinced UVM-ers are their own breed of people. I need to be more social. That would probably have prevented the biggest of my issues. Maybe if I am more social it can repair that issue as well?
I'm really thankful for my friends in 4-15. Despite when they come across as being shallow or flakey, they are actually real people underneath. And they are all so good to me. Plus they know I'm crazy and are still friends with me! Imagine that. And I'm the only girl that goes over there that doesn't have some ridiculous nickname. It is just sometimes I'm glad I have those guys around because I know if I really needed them they'd be there. So even though they make decisions that I would never make and they do things that I don't agree with and the fact that sometimes I want to punch some of them in the face, I'm glad that I have them here. Besides a handful of other random people, they are really my only friends here.
I'm in one of those weird states where I don't know how I feel / don't know what to do about anything. I've been avoiding an akward conversation with Connor. And a conversation with Joe I really don't want to have. I'm going to have to put my foot down at some point, but a large part of me really doesn't want to. I just have these three major situations that need to be dealt with and if/when they are someone will end up hurt, or upset, or unhappy. I mean I guess that is life and it will keep on rollin regardless of what I do. I guess I really just want classes to start again. I need to be busy and have real stuff to do, and that way I'm working towards some kind of goal or something. I need to have grades like I had last semester again. And I'm taking a class at Champlain so maybe I will meet some new people, or at least a new type of person because I'm still convinced UVM-ers are their own breed of people. I need to be more social. That would probably have prevented the biggest of my issues. Maybe if I am more social it can repair that issue as well?
I'm really thankful for my friends in 4-15. Despite when they come across as being shallow or flakey, they are actually real people underneath. And they are all so good to me. Plus they know I'm crazy and are still friends with me! Imagine that. And I'm the only girl that goes over there that doesn't have some ridiculous nickname. It is just sometimes I'm glad I have those guys around because I know if I really needed them they'd be there. So even though they make decisions that I would never make and they do things that I don't agree with and the fact that sometimes I want to punch some of them in the face, I'm glad that I have them here. Besides a handful of other random people, they are really my only friends here.